HOW?

HOW stands for Honours Orientation Week.. haha..

Ppl asks me what I am doing in sch this week, I told them I am having honours orientation.. and they will give me a surprised face.. doing honours also has orientation.. a bit unbelieveable right.. only chem department has this.. it is not a O Week that you will ice breaker games to let you know your fellow chem honours students or the profs.. haha.. somebody asks me that.. but it is week full of some useful and also boring talks.. like today.. I am wondering whether the statistics lects are relelvant to me.. slept thru half of it.. it's really boring.. some parts have already learnt before in sec and jc.. and the lecturers are boring also.. oops.. hee.. got one talked so softly into the mic that I cannot hear what he says and one rushes thru and I cannot catch what he says and feels so lost.. hope tmr talks will be more interesting and more relevant bah..

Seen my supervisor yesterday.. yes.. I have confirmed my honours project topic.. it is "Organometallic Complexes of Quinine for new display materials".. it has both organic and inorganic.. and analytical also.... has to use NMR and MS mah.. From the leftovers, I found this project which is interesting to me.. I don't know why nobody wants this proj.. I heard this Prof not bad.. but may have high expectation lor.. maybe becos he is the HOD mah.. from the list.. I see I am among the 2 who took his projects.. surprisingly.. he has 10 over proj but nobody wants.. maybe inorganic is not popular.. apparently the other person who is taking his project has not contact him yet.. and I may be the only one honours student he has this sem.. and the lab officer made a comment that they have to "zhen xi" me the only honours student..

don't know why.. after meeting him yesterday, I felt a bit scared.. feels scared that I have to do the organic synthesis independently.. really scared will screw up everything.. what if I failed to synthesize anything.. what if I don't understand what I doing.. what if I even simple things also cannot do properly.. what if I cannot meet the expectations of the prof.. a lot of what ifs are in my mind.. quite intimidated by the lab and the equipment lor.. and I will have to go for trainings to learn how to use NMR and MS.. thinking of that.. I am a bit scared liao..