I am restless..

my prof says I am confusing, I am restless and have no confidence..

becos I was very hungry, tired from lack of sleep and really lacked of self-confidence..

I felt like crying at that time.. I was controlling my emotions.. I felt my voice breaking when I speak but I control it.. that's what I am good in.. hiding my emotions, pretending to be happy.. to be strong.. but I am not.. I am not good in hiding.. if not why he feels I am restless.. and lack of confidence.. so confusing right..

I threw my temper when somebody snatch the fluorescence spectrometer from me.. of course I didn't scold her.. I stomped away to cool down and come back when I am more calm..

I threw my temper at my mum when she repeated asked me to do chem related jobs.. I have told her repeatedly that I don't want to do research already.. can't she listen..

I am stressed from my fyp, projects.. I have no time.. who can help me? only myself..