Everything has fast forward from the start to the end..

Is that the end? what am I still hoping for.. still looking forward to.. what have all the promises become? they are all empty now..

No choice, no comments, whatever I say.. I hate these answers.. didn't even try or make even the slightest efforts..

Am I being unreasonable or too demanding? or I give problems? I want to help.. I want to be there.. how can I do the right thing if I don't know anything..

I felt the pain and it is still there.. I am tired.. I am not strong at all.. Can I stop thinking about everything and pretend nothing happened? I can't..