Why do I like to drink?

You should know that I am talking about alcohol right.. haha..

I like to drink as a social drinker.. I can't say I love to drink becos sometimes when I reach a limit, I will not want to drink.. why I like to drink? I feel that I am a bit addicted to drinking.. addicted to the feeling that I get from drinking.. usually when I drink, I need more than 2 glasses to get that feeling.. the high feeling.. the feeling of my mind starting to float around.. and my head feels light.. I like the feeling when my head feels light.. becos I always feel that my head is heavy.. heavy with a lot of thoughts and a lot of worries.. which is so depressing to me.. I very easily feel depress and I think alcohol can drown my depression at that moment.. becos when I am high, all these burdens seems to get blur and lighter.. and I can sort of relax myself.. feeling not so constraint..

I do have a bit of hangover.. that's the part which is not so nice about drinking.. but nothing serious for me.. I am never drunk until drop dead before.. never vomit before.. I know how to limit myself by drinking slowly and I always keep myself concious to know how much I have drank and seems like I can drink quite a lot compared to my friends.. I actually will like to find out my limit.. to be drunk once but after looking at how some of the gals are so unglam when they are drunk.. I decided not to be drunk at all.. however I think if I have a drunk experience.. experience all the bad things.. then I may cut down on drinking.. maybe being drunk will make me hate drinking.. haha..

I never done any silly things before when I am high on alcohol.. becos I am so concious about what I doing.. but it will only give me the energy to dance as much as I can if I am in a club becos if I am not high, I feel sian about dancing.. haha.. so I seldom likes to go clubbing..

After drinking quite a lot last week for the Christmas celebration, I can still feel the alcohol in my liver.. haha.. really.. not lying.. I think if I do drink on New Year Eve.. it will only be sip by sip.. that's what I have done during the dinner with boss.. haha.. unless the alcohol has been completely broken down in my liver by then.. I don't think I will enjoy drinking..

Mojito is my favourite!

Quoted from Wikipedia:

"... traditionally made of five ingredients: white rum, sugar (traditionally sugar cane juice), lime, carbonated water, and mint. Its combination of sweetness, refreshing citrus and mint flavors are intended to mask the potent kick of the rum, and have made this clear highball a popular summer drink.

When preparing a mojito, lime juice is added to sugar (or syrup) and mint leaves. The mixture is then gently mashed with a muddler. The mint leaves should only be bruised to release the essential oils and must not be shredded. Then rum is added and the mixture is briefly stirred to dissolve the sugar and to lift the mint sprigs up from the bottom for better presentation. Finally, the drink is topped with ice cubes and sparkling water, and mint leaves and lime wedges are used to garnish the glass."

It's sweet and minty.. you don't really taste the alcohol at all so I love it!

Do I really look like I am from China??

haha.. 3 ppl have said that to me.. One is my colleague who says that I look like from China.. First time hear somebody say that of me.. really makes me wonder..

and then I took cab and 2 taxi drivers also say that I don't sound like a local.. more like from China or Hong Kong.. Huh?? Do I have the accent? I don't speak like a local meh.. Maybe to strangers I speak proper Mandarin.. does it mean Singaporeans don't speak good Mandarin? haha.. but I also doesn't sound like from China yah.. so weird.. to ppl I know, I always speak with lah, lor, meh.. haha.. so singlish lor.. really can't believe it..

I don't care it is a compliment or not but I just like to be seen as a local.. I am a Singaporean and like to be a Singaporean.. haha..

4 unique videos..

Recently, while I was sitting on the bus, something on the TV mobile makes me stop dreaming and watch what is on the screen.. who will think what the video means until the msg that appears at the end.. These videos make me wonder.. does these situation only happens for glue sniffing.. but it does make me aware that glue sniffing is back.. it is not an old fashion practice of inhalant abuse.. it is still around.. maybe it is cheaper and more accessible to young ppl than drugs..

Cindee


Benjamin


Fauzi


Rohaina

I can't fake..

Working life is so much complicated than school life..

My intention is just so simple.. I don't like to be misunderstood and keep myself controlled.. I will like to open up but seems like it is not acceptable.. I like to trust ppl and be trusted but it is quite impossible.. I can't be naive and must be careful.. but I just can't get used to that.. that's not me..

Seeking death in a bottle..

This title is well-given.. it appears on the saturday paper.. the issue of euthanasia has been heatedly discussed in the whole world.. and my stand is against..

Euthanasia maybe is a way to die peacefully and with no pain.. a way to release a terminally ill patient from the pain that he suffer from.. this pain is indescribable.. and nobody can understand unless you been through it.. so it can be unbearable that makes the patient wants to die instead of living.. maybe his family will also not feel too painful to see him suffer and also spend too much money to care for his living.. but is this thinking right? It may seem reasonable.. but is it how life should end.. it is like suicide.. but this is suicide assisted by the doctor.. the doctor will give you an injection to put you to sleep forever.. if you feel like dying, why not you do it yourself? there are so many ways to suicide.. you just too scared to end your life in a ugly and painful ways.. maybe if the poison is given by a doctor, you will feel more peaceful and 100% guarantee of dying.. I just feel so.. I am not encouraging suicides.. but I just see the similarities between euthanasia and suicide.. the difference is the doctor is made the killer..

if the doctor is given the right to kill, it will conflict with his responsibility to save ppl.. doctor is also human.. is he always right in deciding when to save ppl and kill him? that is like making him the god.. who's know this right will not be abused.. to save up on the beds, terminally ill patient may be put to death before he is given the treatment and chance to cure.. how to guage correctly that the patient is suffering "unacceptably" and he has no chance to survive the illness and they have a desire to die.. when you are in serious pain at the moment, you will think of the easy way out which is to die so how can this momentary wish to die be trusted.. and will stories of miracles of ppl recovering from terminal illness and from near death still exist if this option is given to the doctor?

what is the meaning of life? if ppl don't go through the different stages of life which involves unhappiness, pain and problems.. we can't give up so easily.. choosing euthansia is just like saying that it is right in taking the easy way out in everything to end pain.. it is just like running away from problem.. not everyone is brave enough to face pain but it is this pain that exists to train you to face it bravely..

Terminally ill patient should give palliative care a chance.. which will help in reliefing pain which includes taking care of the the psychological and spiritual needs of the patient.. maybe the patient will feel more comfortable in the remaining days, spend more time with family members and take death to come naturally.. who knows how much things can be done in the remaining days and how much wishes can be fulfilled..

there is also the advance medical directive which is the living will that instructs doctors not to go to extremes to preserve life when a person can no long be saved. It has to be signed by the person himself and two witnesses, one of whom has to be a doctor. Medicator and palliative care will still be administered but not intensive care, like using a respirator to keep a person from dying.. so no the families will not be put in a difficult position to decide when to pull the plug..

there is no point in making a doctor a mercy killer..

Driving is fun!

Anything new to me is always fun.. haha..

the instructor is nice to me.. will joke and make the atmosphere not so awkward or nervous for me.. haha.. he says my biting point and braking is good.. got talent to drive manual yah.. haha.. but I always step too hard on the accelerator.. so hard to maintain it at 2000.. and I will get gan cheong.. haha.. nevermind.. will do better in 2nd lesson.. will be taking the basic theory this coming fri.. should be able to pass bah.. haha..

I hope to learn driving as fast as possible.. don't like to drag yah..