Why do I like to drink?

You should know that I am talking about alcohol right.. haha..

I like to drink as a social drinker.. I can't say I love to drink becos sometimes when I reach a limit, I will not want to drink.. why I like to drink? I feel that I am a bit addicted to drinking.. addicted to the feeling that I get from drinking.. usually when I drink, I need more than 2 glasses to get that feeling.. the high feeling.. the feeling of my mind starting to float around.. and my head feels light.. I like the feeling when my head feels light.. becos I always feel that my head is heavy.. heavy with a lot of thoughts and a lot of worries.. which is so depressing to me.. I very easily feel depress and I think alcohol can drown my depression at that moment.. becos when I am high, all these burdens seems to get blur and lighter.. and I can sort of relax myself.. feeling not so constraint..

I do have a bit of hangover.. that's the part which is not so nice about drinking.. but nothing serious for me.. I am never drunk until drop dead before.. never vomit before.. I know how to limit myself by drinking slowly and I always keep myself concious to know how much I have drank and seems like I can drink quite a lot compared to my friends.. I actually will like to find out my limit.. to be drunk once but after looking at how some of the gals are so unglam when they are drunk.. I decided not to be drunk at all.. however I think if I have a drunk experience.. experience all the bad things.. then I may cut down on drinking.. maybe being drunk will make me hate drinking.. haha..

I never done any silly things before when I am high on alcohol.. becos I am so concious about what I doing.. but it will only give me the energy to dance as much as I can if I am in a club becos if I am not high, I feel sian about dancing.. haha.. so I seldom likes to go clubbing..

After drinking quite a lot last week for the Christmas celebration, I can still feel the alcohol in my liver.. haha.. really.. not lying.. I think if I do drink on New Year Eve.. it will only be sip by sip.. that's what I have done during the dinner with boss.. haha.. unless the alcohol has been completely broken down in my liver by then.. I don't think I will enjoy drinking..