National day's coming..

I have wanting to go watch national day parade.. every year registered to get tix.. but always cannot get de.. don't know why lor.. and I don't know anybody who has tix.. so always don't get to go.. so sad.. actually I want to get the goodie bag more then going to watch.. haha..

haha.. I actually watched the parade on tv every year.. except last year.. as I am busy with flag stuff lah.. and this year I think I going to miss again becos I got class outing on that day.. haha..

my house every year got hang flag de lor.. yah very patriotic.. haha.. not really lah.. just want to feel to be part of the celebration mah.. and my flat void deck got a RC so they will everytime hang flags for the whole block lor.. but my flat is at a corner so they cannot hang for us mah.. but I will make sure my mother will hang it de.. so my flat will always have the national day celebrating mood..

looking at the opposite flat.. actually quite pathetic lor.. every year the same few people hang flags only.. so different from 10 years ago.. where most people will hang de.. becos really see the encouragement from the government to hang.. but now.. I don't really see it.. not on tv also.. hai~

Heard something..

yah.. first seen it from his blog then hear it from himself.. he has gf already.. someone I don't know.. don't know what's my feeling.. weird weird de.. haha... but that's a crush that is so long ago.. should be happy for him.. so wish you all the best and hope you have a very happy time with her..

Numerology

From the iweekly, know of one website that analyse what your life number represents.. just add up all the numbers in your birth date to get your life number.. haha..

For example, my birth date: 5/4/1985
5+4+1+9+8+5=32
3+2=5
so my life number is 5!

went to this website http://astro.lady.qq.com/a/20051021/000004.htm to read their analysis..
quite interesting.. true or not.. not sure leh.. haha.. okay lah.. a bit true.. I really like freedom but the part about love.. I don't know..

horoscope is sometimes quite right..

Quote from life!horoscope:
"These clashes are not anyone's fault, so you can stop worrying whether you are to blame. Everyone involved is going through some major transitions, and growing pains are a normal part of the process."

is this talking about what I am going thru now with my parents? quite accurate leh.. haha..

now.. I am quite busy with my modules, project allocation lah.. hope everything will go smoothly..

haha.. I am feeling quite lucky again.. I just won tix to a concert.. but don't know who will go with me.. haha..

The Cold War..

My mum and dad are still not talking.. 5 days already lor.. it's so serious this time.. never before.. my mum has been so determined to don't talk to dad.. okay.. I really don't know what to do and don't really want to do anything about it.. as I am also quite unhappy with my dad.. for the same reason that my mum is mad with him.. he did not informed any of us that he will be accompany my uncle, aunt and their son to ntu and have lunch together.. yah.. uncle is my mum's brother and they came all the way from malaysia.. they son who is my cousin lah.. will be studying in ntu this coming academic year.. he will be staying in hall there..

I not sure how the misunderstanding started between mum and dad that he thinks that she does not want to care about my cousin and is not concerned.. which is not true at all.. my mum even bought a hot water flask and intended to give him but in the end it is not needed at all as they already have brought one here.. I feel that dad should not has misunderstand mum.. I told him but he still doesn't believe me.. which I am really not happy about.. and it is really not nice that we know nothing of their visit..

I really don't know why my dad has become like that.. i think is male menopause bah.. which is andropause.. a friend told me about this word.. okay I search the wikipedia and it says the symptoms of andropause are nervousness, depression, impaired memory, the inability to concentrate, fatigue, insomnia, hot flushes, and sweating.. the primary cause is the below normal levels of testosterone.. I really agree that my dad shows some of the symptoms.. nervousness, depression, poor memory and insomnia.. he has become very sensitive to stuff.. and always worried that nobody will care about him.. worried that I don't want him.. and he will ask me the same thing at least 4 or 5 times in a week.. he also sleep less now and easily awaken by noise.. like my sneeze.. sounds when things dropped.. actually I quite worried lor.. but also don't know what to do.. because everytime when I talk to him about something.. he will think too much.. and become agitated.. really don't know how to talk to him.. I will avoid him.. even my mum is doing the same thing now.. because she feels that he has become more narrow-minded and grudging..

hai~ I feel that the cold war is not good at all lor.. but I can't do anything.. other than wait and see for it to be resolved slowly..

Watched harry potter last mon..

heard it is not a good movie.. many ppl don't like it.. but I find it okay leh.. normal lor.. becos maybe my expectation is not high bah.. never will expect it will be good from the first movie of the series till now liao.. becos once you have read the book.. you will definitely not find the movie nice de.. so many details in the book has been left out in the movie lor.. the book so thick so can't exxpect everything to be in de mah..

although I know that it will not be nice.. I still want to watch it becos I just like to see the visual effects.. seeing what I have read to become something real and can be seen.. that's something I look forward to.. and I have read the book about 2 years ago bah.. so I also forgot a lot about the story and I am reading the 6th book now.. so it really help me to understand stuff..

yah.. I am reading the 6th book now.. and not the last book.. I have drag until now then read the 6th book.. haha.. and many ppl now are talking about the last book already.. I am slow right.. haha..

this movie I watched with my nemo freshies.. there are a few of them who will always respond to my outing de.. haha.. when I last min msg them to go for dinner.. pei me eat dinner.. they will also go.. so on.. but got one gal yah.. she already watched the movie before.. but just to pei us she watched it again.. and she have found the movie not nice leh.. alamak.. she thinks she got too much money izzit.. don't really like ppl to do this lor.. should have let me know mah.. money is not for spending like this de.. I know you saved a lot of money from eating breads.. but also cannot like that okay.. we can do other things de.. but she still says that she benefited something from watching the movie with us.. becos she slept thru half of the movie when she first saw it.. then the second time she only slept thru 1/4 of it so she watched an 1/4 that she has missed.. diao..

Very unlucky.. not feeling too good..

now I am actually quite frustrated by some things that are going on around me.. I haven't seen anything that has been going quite smooth for me.. where is my luck.. I started to think about my karma.. is it really so bad.. did I being too disobedient to my parents.. did I lie too much.. did I gossip too much.. did I talk bad about ppl.. did I offended anyone that I don't know and I been cursed.. haha.. too engrossed in harry potter.. anyway.. am I thinking too much..

my fyp is not going well.. all my 3 choices are gone.. all taken up by other ppl.. I should not have tried my luck on the popular project.. I should have make a safer choice.. it's my mistake.. and becos I lost my first choice to other better person.. I thought I can still depend on my 2nd and 3rd choices but they have been given to those ppl who put them as their first choice.. this prof has 10 over projects.. but why still not enough to distribute to those who want to take his projects.. and I am one of those who is been left out.. why.. what has happened to me? is it I did not consider too deeply into it.. take it too lightly.. thinking that I will have the luck to get it.. and now I am so lost.. I realy not sure what is going to happen.. I am still waiting to see what projects will be left over for me to choose.. am I still able to get something I like.. that what I am worrying about.. really fed up by it.. and don't really want to think about it liao.. I just hope my luck will not be sooo bad..

then my modules.. got clashes again.. it is already bad that I have to take lab and lecture that clashes.. have to do experiment half way and then go for lect then back to lab again to finish the experiment within the given time.. that's the only plan for me now.. and I have to do this at my OWN RISK.. that's what the lecturer say.. this makes me worry.. and now there another tutorial that will clash with this lab also.. why is it like that? is it I should have took this lab module during special sem and not drag to this sem to take.. is it a punishment for me for not listening to the advice.. is it? I lazy to care about it liao.. just for the admin ppl to settle it for me now..

then last sat during work.. I made a mistake by not conducting the game properly and causes a gal to cry and she and her mother argued with us.. that gal is not a small kid at all.. about 16 bah.. and she cried just becos she cannot get the ipod shuffle.. and is me who don't let her have it.. she cheated in the game by roll and push the ball.. did not follow the instruction of throw the balls.. she bend the rules and find the loopholes in the instructions.. she argued with me.. she got the balls to land on the required black stars to win the game by cheating.. and she and her mother still think she deserve to win.. and shouted at me and demanded why cant I just let them win it.. but the thing is the ipod is just a gimmick to attract ppl.. ppl are not supposed to win it at all.. if there is any ipod missing, I will be in deep trouble.. bt yes.. it's my fault also.. I should not been so shui bian.. did not say the rules properly.. let her have the chance to anyhow throw and when I see that she has cheated, I still did not stop her but close 1 eye.. in my mind I was thinking she will never get the black star de lor.. the 499 ppl in front of her has proven it is impossible already.. but she still manage to get it in her way.. is her lucky but my unlucky..

they argued with me, then with the branch manager.. so paiseh lor.. just a free game.. why they have to create such a big fuss.. and fight over an ipod.. and the branch manager is quite unhappy about it.. I just hoped they will not complained to my boss lor.. really scared I will have no job liao.. but I am honest to boss.. told him what happened.. luckily the boss still msg me to go for the job.. haha.. which means no complains..

Some scary encounters..

Sun.. I went to occ at boon lay.. it was so far from my house.. okay lah.. can do some exercise and help the flag and for charity.. quite meaningful.. I think it is my 8th OCC bah.. haha.. compared to the previous occs.. I think this is the most slack one.. not very rush.. at least got 4 people per block and some more not much things to carry.. don't know whether they earn much from this or not.. I still think occ at hougang and toa payoh more successful.. more stuff to collect..

so what scary encounters I have? I was stared by a cat.. I not scared of cat de leh.. I was walking up a stairs reaching a floor.. then I saw a cat staring at me.. it is hiding behind some old cupboard outside a flat.. I actually wanted to ignore it but every step forward that I take.. the cat also move one steps closer to me.. and its big round eyes just looked at me.. then I feel scared becos its eyes are shiny.. will turn bright de lor.. so scary.. so I don't dare to knock on that floor flats and immediately went to find my freshie to get him to come to knock on the flat.. but when we came back the cat is not there anymore.. huh.. why like that de? then my freshie think I think too much lor..

after this incident, there is another scary encounter with pet.. I was chased by a dog.. I reached a flat that has its front door wide open so I press the bell.. then I heard dog's barks.. oh oo.. I knew the dog is going to run out liao.. and there is no door to block it from me.. I tried to calm down.. at the same time preparing to run.. I am not really scared of dog.. but I scare it will run out and jump on me.. bite me or lick me.. don't really like that.. and that flat is just beside the stairs so when I knew that it had run out of the flat.. I quickly climb up the stairs.. when I reach the top of the stairs.. I saaw that it did not follow me up but just barking at the bottom of the stairs.. so I wanted to walk down slowly.. but once I move down a few steps.. it immediately chase me again.. so I run back up the stairs to the floor above.. and I even continue run along the corridor of that floor.. and I think I disturbed one of the resident who came out of the flat to see what had happened.. so paiseh lor.. and so scary..luckily the dog's owner called back the dog and it didn't chase me anymore and I think the owner didn't know who her dog is chasing.. haha..

I really don't know why I so unlucky that day.. did so many occ also never encounter all these lor..

Gathering every 6 months..

time really passes very fast.. exactly half a year ago on 30th Dec.. we were all saying our new year resolutions at the same place and many of us are still schooling.. but this time in this gathering on 30th June, I am the only one going back to NUS in the new semester.. things really changes fast.. those who just graduated have jobs already.. one even going US for training for 5 weeks.. they are all beginning to earn own money and only me still going to school and using my parents' money.. I feel so young in this gathering lah.. in sch I am sort of the "oldest" lor..

3 years really seems so fast.. I really miss the happy times together as a SOW comm and in sci club.. will look forward to the next gethering exactly 6 months later.. haha..

me and the 38 gang..

the "family" photo.. haha..

transformers.. lots of action..

this is the movie that lots of people say it's very good.. so I must watch it.. I die die got someone to watch with me.. becos so many people so fast went to watch liao.. I am so slow..

it's being quite some time I last watch movie with this person.. and he is such a busy person now.. so difficult to get him to watch movie.. and so ma fan.. cannot stay too late lah.. he has to go back to sleep.. I must be understanding lah..

both of us are not into transformers de.. just both like to watch movies especially those that people say good to watch.. so I actually expected this movie to be very good.. but I know it is a cartoon last time so the plot will not be a deep one.. this 2 hour plus movie really very action packed from the beginning to the end.. but the middle a bit boring leh.. then like what I expected the story not much depth and the bad guys die easily.. and the subtitles really sucks.. poor translation..

maybe I like to think a lot when I watch movie and I like movies that can stir emotions, a bit psychology.. so to me this movie not really very very nice lah.. but I must agree it got action and impact.. will not be sian.. but I don't understand why my friend still will fall asleep.. he is just so tired.. haha.. but I agree with him some of the things that the transformers say are really quite confusing.. I was almost lost.. haha..

Still feeling tired..

back from SCAMP more than one week ago liao.. still feels tired.. I should have talked about SCAMP.. all the fun I have.. and also the rag and flag camp but I am so lazy to do it.. must be the super lack of sleep during the camp that I haven't recover yet..

and I am so worried about my honours project and clashes of modules that I always can feel something at the back of my mind bothering me.. so frustrating.. all the 3 choices that I made for the project are so popular.. my first choice now got 5 people fighting.. don't know that project is their which choice.. I thought I have decided on Prof Lee.. but after reading the journal, I don't really find the topic very interesting.. will my interest last thru out the year? I not really sure.. so I made that as my 2nd and 3rd choice.. but they are also so popular.. my first choice is something about natural products.. I really like it.. analysing and no very bio stuff.. no cell culture.. but I don't have conifdent to get it.. I just have the feeling my CAP is not good enough.. if based on grades.. becos Dr Huang said he will choose the person randomly.. what will he base it on? don't tell me draw lots? hai~

maybe of all these.. I get emotional easily bah? I don't know why I get so worked up becos of a video.. but when I saw it I really not comfortable with it lor.. how can they take video of me without me knowing.. and when I trusted them and tell them stuff that I don't really share with ppl.. and they film only me.. why? when they laughed at the video.. I just don't feel funny at all.. I just don't understand.. make me wonder whether I am too naive in trusting.. quite dumb of me saying so much thing.. maybe I am the one started the topic.. is it something wrong that I do.. anyway.. I have told the person and he told me that he had deleted all copies.. hopefully that the end of it.. and hopefully that person will not find me irritating for making a small matter seems big..

but this matter really teaches me to be careful when saying some personal stuff.. I am just too trusting..