Still feeling tired..

back from SCAMP more than one week ago liao.. still feels tired.. I should have talked about SCAMP.. all the fun I have.. and also the rag and flag camp but I am so lazy to do it.. must be the super lack of sleep during the camp that I haven't recover yet..

and I am so worried about my honours project and clashes of modules that I always can feel something at the back of my mind bothering me.. so frustrating.. all the 3 choices that I made for the project are so popular.. my first choice now got 5 people fighting.. don't know that project is their which choice.. I thought I have decided on Prof Lee.. but after reading the journal, I don't really find the topic very interesting.. will my interest last thru out the year? I not really sure.. so I made that as my 2nd and 3rd choice.. but they are also so popular.. my first choice is something about natural products.. I really like it.. analysing and no very bio stuff.. no cell culture.. but I don't have conifdent to get it.. I just have the feeling my CAP is not good enough.. if based on grades.. becos Dr Huang said he will choose the person randomly.. what will he base it on? don't tell me draw lots? hai~

maybe of all these.. I get emotional easily bah? I don't know why I get so worked up becos of a video.. but when I saw it I really not comfortable with it lor.. how can they take video of me without me knowing.. and when I trusted them and tell them stuff that I don't really share with ppl.. and they film only me.. why? when they laughed at the video.. I just don't feel funny at all.. I just don't understand.. make me wonder whether I am too naive in trusting.. quite dumb of me saying so much thing.. maybe I am the one started the topic.. is it something wrong that I do.. anyway.. I have told the person and he told me that he had deleted all copies.. hopefully that the end of it.. and hopefully that person will not find me irritating for making a small matter seems big..

but this matter really teaches me to be careful when saying some personal stuff.. I am just too trusting..