Very unlucky.. not feeling too good..

now I am actually quite frustrated by some things that are going on around me.. I haven't seen anything that has been going quite smooth for me.. where is my luck.. I started to think about my karma.. is it really so bad.. did I being too disobedient to my parents.. did I lie too much.. did I gossip too much.. did I talk bad about ppl.. did I offended anyone that I don't know and I been cursed.. haha.. too engrossed in harry potter.. anyway.. am I thinking too much..

my fyp is not going well.. all my 3 choices are gone.. all taken up by other ppl.. I should not have tried my luck on the popular project.. I should have make a safer choice.. it's my mistake.. and becos I lost my first choice to other better person.. I thought I can still depend on my 2nd and 3rd choices but they have been given to those ppl who put them as their first choice.. this prof has 10 over projects.. but why still not enough to distribute to those who want to take his projects.. and I am one of those who is been left out.. why.. what has happened to me? is it I did not consider too deeply into it.. take it too lightly.. thinking that I will have the luck to get it.. and now I am so lost.. I realy not sure what is going to happen.. I am still waiting to see what projects will be left over for me to choose.. am I still able to get something I like.. that what I am worrying about.. really fed up by it.. and don't really want to think about it liao.. I just hope my luck will not be sooo bad..

then my modules.. got clashes again.. it is already bad that I have to take lab and lecture that clashes.. have to do experiment half way and then go for lect then back to lab again to finish the experiment within the given time.. that's the only plan for me now.. and I have to do this at my OWN RISK.. that's what the lecturer say.. this makes me worry.. and now there another tutorial that will clash with this lab also.. why is it like that? is it I should have took this lab module during special sem and not drag to this sem to take.. is it a punishment for me for not listening to the advice.. is it? I lazy to care about it liao.. just for the admin ppl to settle it for me now..

then last sat during work.. I made a mistake by not conducting the game properly and causes a gal to cry and she and her mother argued with us.. that gal is not a small kid at all.. about 16 bah.. and she cried just becos she cannot get the ipod shuffle.. and is me who don't let her have it.. she cheated in the game by roll and push the ball.. did not follow the instruction of throw the balls.. she bend the rules and find the loopholes in the instructions.. she argued with me.. she got the balls to land on the required black stars to win the game by cheating.. and she and her mother still think she deserve to win.. and shouted at me and demanded why cant I just let them win it.. but the thing is the ipod is just a gimmick to attract ppl.. ppl are not supposed to win it at all.. if there is any ipod missing, I will be in deep trouble.. bt yes.. it's my fault also.. I should not been so shui bian.. did not say the rules properly.. let her have the chance to anyhow throw and when I see that she has cheated, I still did not stop her but close 1 eye.. in my mind I was thinking she will never get the black star de lor.. the 499 ppl in front of her has proven it is impossible already.. but she still manage to get it in her way.. is her lucky but my unlucky..

they argued with me, then with the branch manager.. so paiseh lor.. just a free game.. why they have to create such a big fuss.. and fight over an ipod.. and the branch manager is quite unhappy about it.. I just hoped they will not complained to my boss lor.. really scared I will have no job liao.. but I am honest to boss.. told him what happened.. luckily the boss still msg me to go for the job.. haha.. which means no complains..