My designs

That time, the signage company executive director wanted to look at my designs.. yah.. somebody so high in position is interested in looking at my designs? I am quite surprised lah.. and I am just learning designing and anyhow design de.. but he is interested to look at them.. this makes me more positive about getting this job.. so I went to dig out my designs.. actually not many of them lah.. just the designs I did for my sch project, , fac tee, sciphi and grad dinner.. I have uploaded those that I never upload before for you all to see.. any comments just post.. I am just a beginner.. haha..

These are the designs and articles I did for current issue of Sci phi..

Front and back cover.. somebody commented that it is not very nice.. no focus and direction.. don't really understand what it is about.. and the photos should not be cut out..



Nice photos taken by me.. haha.. and three from bellamy.. of course his are the nicest lah.

The first window signage I designed for use before the opening.. that time I don't really know the existence of illustrator so I actually used photoshop to design this and I used many many layers.. just to get the special font effect..
Sciphi previous issue cover.. I gave the idea and pic and it is actually done by Andy..

Below is the series of designs for a write up in previous sci phi..





Ticket design for my grad dinner.. not very nicely done.. haha..


he replied and he likes my fac tee design.. which can be found here.. http://stars-fruit.blogspot.com/2008/03/thank-you.html.. what he says really makes me more confident to do designing..
"The design of your faculty tee is quite nice. I like the way the graphic flows around the T-shirt. The juxtapose of the two very different text treatment is quite nicely done as well."

Really happy to hear this good comment.. and he also says this when I emailed him to ask him about the interview result.. I was quite worried about it lah.. becos no news for quite some time..
"We are still reviewing your job application. If it helps, I like you to know that your application is viewed positively. I've personally enjoyed the good vibes we shared."

then now the phone call. :)

A good lot..

Yesterday, I went to the si ma lu guanyin temple.. my mum suggested that we go pray.. becos she is actually very worried about my jobseeking.. scared I jobless for too long and no money yah.. she is very concerned about money issue lah..

Acually, from this outing with my mum, I found that my relationship with my parents is quite strained.. last time, I will talk to my mum about anything.. yah.. basically everything that happens to me.. becos we are close and she will listen.. yes.. she will listen.. but now? she don't listen to me at all.. when I want to share something with her about my photography field trip on sun.. about the fun I had.. she is not interested at all.. and always try to divert the conversation to other topics.. why is she like that? becos she thinks my nightmares the previous night is caused by my field trip on the forest trail from the alexandra bridge to the henderson wave.. it is ridiculous.. yes.. my nightmares were quite bad.. two which were so scary that I cried twice during my sleep.. don't know why leh.. it is really scary.. I never tell her the details of my nightmares.. becos one of them is about her bullying me.. haha.. funny right.. she also appear in my dream..

I had been quite depressed and really about my relationship with my parents which has been affecting me so much.. that somebody says I am not looking happy at all.. I don't know why.. I just can't find the strength to smile a lot.. some people can just smile.. and they find it tiring to look serious.. but I am the other way round.. I like the feeling of smiling but it just don't happen frequent.. I know it does not happen frequent at home now.. becos my parents are all forcing their ideas on me.. they already know that I will not listen to them.. but they just to say them over and over.. even if I have threw my temper becos of what they say.. they just want to say it.. and they really hope that I do what they like and say what they like to listen.. then how can I share anything with them.. how can I talk to them.. I can only say things that they like to listen.. but will I be happy? will I? and they always potray me as someone else which is not me at all.. misunderstand me.. I just give up and don't talk to them much..

like a few days ago.. I fell down becos I slipped on a pool of oil in the lift.. I thought that is just a pool of water.. never expect that to be oil.. and I just stepped on it and slipped.. luckily I landed near the door which does not has much oil.. but I did dirtied my clothes a bit.. then just have to return home to change to go out again.. once I stepped into the door.. my mother just scolded me for being so careless.. why I have to enter while I see a pool on the floor.. how I manage to fall while I am so young.. does she means that young ppl can't fall down.. can't have careless moments.. can't just be unlucky? must she nag at me repeatedly.. and just stand there and never show any concern whether I hurt myself at all.. I am totally angry and disappointed.. why my mum is like that? am I an only child? am I pampered at all? some interviewers see that I am only child and first thing they are afraid that I am pampered.. and will not be hungry for sales at all.. but am I? that is a misconception.. I am hungry to show my parents that I can do something not my major and do it well! I will show them de!

I really felt very sad and depressed.. I just try to sleep it off.. maybe my bad memory will throw these unhappiness away.. makes me not to think about it again.. becos I can't remember! but it happens almost everyday so it is difficult to forget! I just bottle it up somewhere inside me..

anyway.. that is just another unhappy complain I have.. here is the good news.. I drew a good lot yesterday.. seems to be the best lot.. it says something good will happen that means I will get my job soon and I will be contented.. it is a good sign.. and I just received a phone call just now that I need to go to the signage company for a final discussion on fri and that will decide whether I can work there.. I am really keen to work there.. I can work as a project executive.. not chemistry related at all and there is some designing related as this company do designs of signs.. I should be happy to work there.. so hope the discussion goes well!

Cheers to Paralympics!

This post came quite late.. has wanted to talk about it last week.. becos I am so touched by the performance of these athletes.. no matter which countries they are from.. they have shown all of us what is sportsmanship.. what is determination and hard work.. they are truely the sportsmen..

this was the first time that I have watched the matches on tv.. sitting volleyball where the handicapped volleyballer will sit down to play.. even if some of them don't have a leg.. they still could play with their hands and move about using their one legs and buttocks.. when the match finished they also jump up in joy and hopping around and hug each other like any other able bodied athletes..

The swimmers also have shown to us that even if they have lost the strength of their legs they still could swim well to complete the lap..

Goal ball.. an interesting game.. it may seems just an easy throw ball game.. but it is not so for the blinds.. they have to feel the ball and also use their hearing..

Marathon runners may have lost the strength of their hands, they still could train their stamina and leg strength to run the marathon..

These athletes have shown to us that whatever difficulties they have they could overcome them.. they are both mentally and physically strong.. and I feel that the problems that able bodied people face seem to be very small compared to theirs.. so how can we give up easily when they can do it!

Congrats to Swimmer Yip Pin Xiufor clinching gold and silver and breaking the world and paralympics records.. we are so proud of you.. seeing the singapore flag being raised and the singapore anthem being played is so emotional to everyone.. no gold for olympics but still have have one at paralympics.. and it is clinched by a true singaporean..

and also congrats to rider Laurentia Tan for clinching two bronze for equestrian.. she is the first Singapore paralympics medallist.. I found an article on her and will like to share with you all..

http://sg.news.yahoo.com/cna/20080912/tap-273-singapores-laurentia-tan-wins-se-231650b.html

"When she was five, Laurentia Tan was described as a "vegetable". Born with cerebral palsy, she could not speak, hear, walk or sit, and her parents Anselm and Jannie were advised to admit her into an institution.

They refused.

Today, their 29—year—old daughter is an Oxford Brooks University graduate based in the United Kingdom. She has a career, drives a car and is now a star athlete, after collecting a second bronze medal at the 13th Paralympic Games on Thursday.

...

Anselm and his wife Jannie moved their family, including son Ephraim, to the UK when Laurentia was four.

"When she was a year old, the doctor said she was spastic. Back then, they didn’t call it cerebral palsy," said Jannie, a government officer.

"We moved to England because the special schools there are very good with the necessary facilities. It was there her deafness was diagnosed. I’m not sure if she could have achieved all this if she had stayed in Singapore then."

Anselm, a businessman, added: "That was Singapore then. Singapore has come a long way in the last 20, 25 years. With the present conditions, she would definitely have been able to achieve this. The level of awareness is much greater now, and we’ve received so much support, including from the Singapore Sports Council, the Singapore Disability Sports Council and so many kind souls."

..."

This is called miracle..

I feel that Singapore still has a long way to go, even now, to have the right facilities to take care of these people with handicaps.. only the last few years that the MRT has built lifts and slopes and other facilities allows these people to take the train conveniently..

More awareness still has to be created.. and the society still has some old mentality needs to be changed.. like "scared" of them or avoiding them.. viewing them as "weird".. I feel this is only a start but it is a great start.. as the medals have sort of open our eyes..

Boy A

Watched the movie last tue.. after my interview which was quite short.. and just nice I was at PS and this movie only shows at GV plaza..

I have been wanting to watch this movie.. becos it has good review and I like the story.. The acting is also very convincing.. It is about this Boy A.. he is named Boy A on court to conceal his identity for killing a gal with a friend when they are just children.. it was a gruesome murder.. it was not shown but you know how cruel they are.. and this cruelness has imprinted into the minds of the people in the society that even if he was imprisoned for 14 years.. this murder can still be remembered that when he get out of the jail, the society and media will still want to dig him out.. media just know how to make use of the mentality of the society to get news and viewership..

he changed his name to jack and wanted to start a new life.. he wants to adjust to this new world that he had lost touch for 14 years.. and find love in this new world.. his friend is gone.. he had passed away.. what caused them to commit the murder.. they are not inborn psycho.. they were just children but the bad childhood experience caused them to behave weirdly.. the friend being sexually abused and bullied by other men.. Jack had an alcoholic father and sick mum suffering from cancer and he was always bullied by other guys in sch.. they are basically ignored by others.. nobody to depend on other than each other.. Jack was the weak one but he was influenced by his only friend.. it was sad to see them being imprisoned.. even if their crime is so bad and maybe unforgivable at that time.. but they have already paid the price.. is there no second chance for them.. I just feel sad..

reward is put out to catch this boy A, to dig him out.. he is said not to be forgiving and so he has to always hide his past.. forget about it to start anew but can he? he has nightmares about the past.. the past is still holding on to him and the story being played on the news doesn't help at all.. even to his new found friend in work and girlfriend, he has to keep them from his past.. how can he live this life.. his only comfort is he still have a social worker who really takes care of him and the good thing that he did which was to save a little gal's life.. he has really changed to the better..

When everything was exposed, he tried to get help but where was the help? who was there to help him.. no more friends there for him.. and he can only escape from all these nightmares by leaving this world.. what a bad ending..

Is the society really so unforgiving? I wonder whether the yellow ribbon project is effective.. I really hope it is..

A useful tip to clean your pc..

I happened to chance upon this article in the straits times Digital Life on 3 Sep by Lim Yee Hung.. that teaches me how to clean my pc so that I can get my pc running faster and smoother.. which is very useful for my desktop which I bought for about 5 years ago.. I have reduced my use of this desktop after buying my this laptop last year.. why did I buy this laptop? becos the desktop is too slow le.. startup slow.. internet loads very slow.. so when I want to book nmr slot for my honours project, I always lose to others.. Therefore, I hope these following steps will help to speed up my com.. I tried them.. it did help to speed up a bit but maybe my desktop ram is 256mb only so it still run quite slow compared to my 2G laptop.. I am not used to using my desktop already.. maybe I need to upgrade the ram..

I still want to share with you all the steps.. so that all of you can try it out on your pc.. hope it is useful.. There is only one requirement which is an internet connection for downloading..

1. Tidy the startup
Remove the needless programs which run automatically when your com is turned on. Go to Start Menu, Run, and type "msconfig" in the command prompt. Click the startup tab which displays the list of programs and uncheck the ones that you don't need running at boot up. Restart your com after that. Programs like itunes and skype can go.
A small note: After your com restarted, you will prompt with a dialogue box that tell you that com has startup with a selective start up and asking whether you want to change it to normal. You can ignore that and check the box that you don't want to be reminded again for every startup.

2. Clean up the crap
Over time, your computer accumulates GB of junk and slows down your system and reduces the free space on the hard disk. Go to www.ccleaner.com and download the latest version of CCleaner. Run the program. In the left hand pane under the windows tab, check th boxes of the files that you want to remove such as Temporary Internet Files and your Recent Documents history. If you are unsure, just leave it at the default settings. Click the Applications tab and do likewise. Once you are done, click on Run Cleaner at the bottom right corner and let CCleaner do the magic.
I managed to clean over 2 GB of junk from my com!

3. Clean up your registry
Your PC also collects useless or erroneous entries in the computer registry over time. However, since the registry contains critical files for your computer to function, create a system restore point by going to the Start menu, All programs, Accessories, System Tools and click System Restore. Check the Create a Restore Point button and click Next; follow through the process.
Run the CCleaner and navigate to the Registry tab on the left hand pane. Click the Scan for Issues button. A list of problematic registry entries will be generated. Once the scan is complete, click the Fix All Selected Issues. Click No when asked to create a backup of your registry, since you have already created a restore point and then click Fix All Selected Issues. Restart your computer once it is done. Should something go wrong and you wish to restore your registry, simply restore your com to its original state using System Restore.

4. Remove viruses and spyware.
Many old com are stuck with expired versions of antivirus software. Simply download the latest AVG Free Internet Security Suite which incorporates an antivirus and antispyware scanner and remover from free.avg.com.
A small note: I believe AVG Free is one of the best free antivirus software around becos even the computer centre in NUS also recommends using that and remember to download the free version and not the standard one which requires you to pay after the trial period.
Run the program on startup and click the computer scanner tab on the left hand pane, then click Scan Whole Computer. AVG will then weed out all viruses and spyware and you can choose to delete or quarantine them.

5. Uninstall unwanted programs
Bloatware are a burden on thbe system. You can remove them swiftly and completely with the free Revo Uninstaller program. It scans your system after you uninstall any program and removes any files that are left behind. Go to www.revouninstaller.com, download and run the program. Click on a program you wish to remove from your computer, such as PC games which take up large amounts of space, and then click the Uninstall button on the taskbar.

That's all. Go and try it out!

I really need luck..

I don't have luck getting full time jobs.. I also don't have luck getting part time jobs..

I tried getting a part time.. but seems like there are also many ppl looking for part times too.. and I am not as eligible as them.. so the answers I got are negative.. or just no news.. who will like this feeling? I don't too.. I am feeling the stress.. and is desperate now.. will I just anyhow get a job now? am I choosy? I must say is no for both qns.. I am not so shui bian.. and I also applied for a wide range of jobs.. so don't ask me what kind of jobs I am applying now.. it is so difficult for me to answer now.. becos I am also don't know what I am actually applying.. I know but as long as I feel okay with it.. I will apply.. without thinking too much.. I have an interview next mon.. which I not even sure whether I am up to the job.. the job description looks so chim to me.. I just have to try my best.. *smiling forcefully*

as my parents are so worried about me.. they brought me to a guanyin medium at a temple.. who can really help me and is so accurate about my situation.. which is quite scary.. I am not superstitious but how do you explain these kind of stuff.. she speaks in a language that cannot be understood and so there is this translator.. who will translate what "guanyin" is talking about and what are the talisman for..

She said that I am not focused enough and my mind is quite in a mess about what I want and even I got a job, I will not stay long in it.. and she said I had a bad temper and I should maintain a good relationship with my parents and I should not keep everything to myself.. should communicate with my parents.. isn't this scary? how did she know all these? I am wondering.. why is it so accurate??

and she gave me a few talismen that will bring me good luck in getting a job.. I have to drink and wash with these before going to interview.. and carry it with me.. and I am warned from going to wakes or weddings.. becos it will bring me bad luck..

I should just believe in this.. and hope luck will come..

Now addicted to the OC..

No more the funny jiangzi who is mad but still logical sometimes.. no more the bossy and funny Anna.. and no more manly and caring zhexiu.. I have found a new drama to be addicted with.. haha.. it is the OC.. yup.. it is a very old drama.. I used to like it a lot.. love it.. watched the first season on tv.. that was about 5 years ago.. that's is so long ago..

I think I did watched the 2nd season.. a few episodes of it.. didn't complete it.. why? becos.. if I'm not wrong.. there is some heterosexual content in the story and so Channel 5 changed the timing of the show and put it very late in the night and I can't watch it becos I was studying.. they can't show any lesbian stuff in the prime time.. haha.. silly right.. just becos it will mislead the kids.. anyway.. that is the last of what I know of the OC..

then now that the technology is so advanced.. people upload the dramas online.. and I can watch it.. on tudou.com.. haha.. yah.. I watched many shows on tudou.. what I like about this show? maybe it shows the 'exciting' lifestyle of Americans.. something that is not typical in Asian countries.. so much twist and turns and excitements.. maybe there are but it is ever portrayed on the local tv.. I think this is what so great about american dramas.. they have interesting plots that they can play with.. and I love marissa cooper.. there are most dramas in this character played by Mischa Barton.. the most messy.. which added some interesting factor to the show.. as much as I wish that this pretty gal will get together with ryan.. there will be problems that prevent them to get tog.. then appears several new love interests.. I also love the music used in this drama.. mostly by indie rock bands.. which I enjoy listening to.. yeah!

I am still watching season 2.. in the mid of it.. and there are still so many episodes to go.. haha.. there are seasons 3 and 4.. can't wait to finish it..

I have uploaded the opening song for the OC.. if you have watched it, you will definitely find it familiar.. it is so catchy.. California!

As the local chinese dramas are not catching my attention, I have turned to watch Channel 5.. the Heroes on Mon, Ugly Betty on thurs and project runway! all my favourites!

Not going to avril lavigne's concert.. so sad..

I have wanted to go to the concert all along.. and wished for it so much.. I am so happy to know that she is finally coming and I can finally watch her perform live! missed her 2 previous concerts here.. so I thought since this year I graduated.. I should be more free to attend and maybe by this time I got a job and can pay for the tix.. but...

I am still jobless.. I am broke.. I want to buy the most ex tix $165 +$3 sistic fee.. I can't afford.. online somebody is selling the 2nd row tix at $150! so tempted to buy! but I really can't spend this kind of money.. I tell myself that going for this concert is not a must for me.. I can't anyhow spend my money.. but this is not anyhow! Avril Lavigne's my idol!

I don't want to buy the cheaper tix becos I being to indoor stadium.. I know how bad the view is at the back.. can't see anything other than hearing the singing.. no point.. if I were to go I will want to take photos of her.. see her real expressions and feel her singing and energy.. and not thru the big screen.. so no other tix other than the most ex one..

I just have to bear with it even though I am free tmr.. and I will buy her toronto tour dvd when it comes out.. it will right.. the best damn thing!

Anyway, I uploaded a new video of her tour at the bottom.. pls take a look :)

Wall.E and Eve

It is really a good animated movie.. it is not only a cartoon for kids.. but it also sends a strong msg to everybody..

The show is touching with the innocent love between Wall.E and Eve.. it is so pure and only needs to be expressed using actions and expressions and not much words.. sweet talk is not required.. just certain sparks and interlocking of fingers.. the robots are ideally humanised.. more human than the humans in the movie..

the humans are so scary.. are they what we humans will be like 700 years later? bone loss and fat.. and only know how to communicate thru a screen.. why are they fat? becos they are served by robots and just need to open their mouths to get what they want.. they are always lying on a couch everywhere they go.. and they have forgotten how to walk.. they can't walk.. they need robots to carry them.. oh my goodness!! now beauty is thin.. is fat the beauty in the future?

What became the earth? it is just a ball of junk with mountains of rubbish and no greenery.. who cause this? Humans who escaped in a large spaceship and leave the rubbish to wall.E to clear.. this is so pathetic.. humans did nothing to save earth.. but just run away.. escape from the fact.. this is so sad.. how long can we run away from it..