Why do I like to drink?

You should know that I am talking about alcohol right.. haha..

I like to drink as a social drinker.. I can't say I love to drink becos sometimes when I reach a limit, I will not want to drink.. why I like to drink? I feel that I am a bit addicted to drinking.. addicted to the feeling that I get from drinking.. usually when I drink, I need more than 2 glasses to get that feeling.. the high feeling.. the feeling of my mind starting to float around.. and my head feels light.. I like the feeling when my head feels light.. becos I always feel that my head is heavy.. heavy with a lot of thoughts and a lot of worries.. which is so depressing to me.. I very easily feel depress and I think alcohol can drown my depression at that moment.. becos when I am high, all these burdens seems to get blur and lighter.. and I can sort of relax myself.. feeling not so constraint..

I do have a bit of hangover.. that's the part which is not so nice about drinking.. but nothing serious for me.. I am never drunk until drop dead before.. never vomit before.. I know how to limit myself by drinking slowly and I always keep myself concious to know how much I have drank and seems like I can drink quite a lot compared to my friends.. I actually will like to find out my limit.. to be drunk once but after looking at how some of the gals are so unglam when they are drunk.. I decided not to be drunk at all.. however I think if I have a drunk experience.. experience all the bad things.. then I may cut down on drinking.. maybe being drunk will make me hate drinking.. haha..

I never done any silly things before when I am high on alcohol.. becos I am so concious about what I doing.. but it will only give me the energy to dance as much as I can if I am in a club becos if I am not high, I feel sian about dancing.. haha.. so I seldom likes to go clubbing..

After drinking quite a lot last week for the Christmas celebration, I can still feel the alcohol in my liver.. haha.. really.. not lying.. I think if I do drink on New Year Eve.. it will only be sip by sip.. that's what I have done during the dinner with boss.. haha.. unless the alcohol has been completely broken down in my liver by then.. I don't think I will enjoy drinking..

Mojito is my favourite!

Quoted from Wikipedia:

"... traditionally made of five ingredients: white rum, sugar (traditionally sugar cane juice), lime, carbonated water, and mint. Its combination of sweetness, refreshing citrus and mint flavors are intended to mask the potent kick of the rum, and have made this clear highball a popular summer drink.

When preparing a mojito, lime juice is added to sugar (or syrup) and mint leaves. The mixture is then gently mashed with a muddler. The mint leaves should only be bruised to release the essential oils and must not be shredded. Then rum is added and the mixture is briefly stirred to dissolve the sugar and to lift the mint sprigs up from the bottom for better presentation. Finally, the drink is topped with ice cubes and sparkling water, and mint leaves and lime wedges are used to garnish the glass."

It's sweet and minty.. you don't really taste the alcohol at all so I love it!

Do I really look like I am from China??

haha.. 3 ppl have said that to me.. One is my colleague who says that I look like from China.. First time hear somebody say that of me.. really makes me wonder..

and then I took cab and 2 taxi drivers also say that I don't sound like a local.. more like from China or Hong Kong.. Huh?? Do I have the accent? I don't speak like a local meh.. Maybe to strangers I speak proper Mandarin.. does it mean Singaporeans don't speak good Mandarin? haha.. but I also doesn't sound like from China yah.. so weird.. to ppl I know, I always speak with lah, lor, meh.. haha.. so singlish lor.. really can't believe it..

I don't care it is a compliment or not but I just like to be seen as a local.. I am a Singaporean and like to be a Singaporean.. haha..

4 unique videos..

Recently, while I was sitting on the bus, something on the TV mobile makes me stop dreaming and watch what is on the screen.. who will think what the video means until the msg that appears at the end.. These videos make me wonder.. does these situation only happens for glue sniffing.. but it does make me aware that glue sniffing is back.. it is not an old fashion practice of inhalant abuse.. it is still around.. maybe it is cheaper and more accessible to young ppl than drugs..

Cindee


Benjamin


Fauzi


Rohaina

I can't fake..

Working life is so much complicated than school life..

My intention is just so simple.. I don't like to be misunderstood and keep myself controlled.. I will like to open up but seems like it is not acceptable.. I like to trust ppl and be trusted but it is quite impossible.. I can't be naive and must be careful.. but I just can't get used to that.. that's not me..

Seeking death in a bottle..

This title is well-given.. it appears on the saturday paper.. the issue of euthanasia has been heatedly discussed in the whole world.. and my stand is against..

Euthanasia maybe is a way to die peacefully and with no pain.. a way to release a terminally ill patient from the pain that he suffer from.. this pain is indescribable.. and nobody can understand unless you been through it.. so it can be unbearable that makes the patient wants to die instead of living.. maybe his family will also not feel too painful to see him suffer and also spend too much money to care for his living.. but is this thinking right? It may seem reasonable.. but is it how life should end.. it is like suicide.. but this is suicide assisted by the doctor.. the doctor will give you an injection to put you to sleep forever.. if you feel like dying, why not you do it yourself? there are so many ways to suicide.. you just too scared to end your life in a ugly and painful ways.. maybe if the poison is given by a doctor, you will feel more peaceful and 100% guarantee of dying.. I just feel so.. I am not encouraging suicides.. but I just see the similarities between euthanasia and suicide.. the difference is the doctor is made the killer..

if the doctor is given the right to kill, it will conflict with his responsibility to save ppl.. doctor is also human.. is he always right in deciding when to save ppl and kill him? that is like making him the god.. who's know this right will not be abused.. to save up on the beds, terminally ill patient may be put to death before he is given the treatment and chance to cure.. how to guage correctly that the patient is suffering "unacceptably" and he has no chance to survive the illness and they have a desire to die.. when you are in serious pain at the moment, you will think of the easy way out which is to die so how can this momentary wish to die be trusted.. and will stories of miracles of ppl recovering from terminal illness and from near death still exist if this option is given to the doctor?

what is the meaning of life? if ppl don't go through the different stages of life which involves unhappiness, pain and problems.. we can't give up so easily.. choosing euthansia is just like saying that it is right in taking the easy way out in everything to end pain.. it is just like running away from problem.. not everyone is brave enough to face pain but it is this pain that exists to train you to face it bravely..

Terminally ill patient should give palliative care a chance.. which will help in reliefing pain which includes taking care of the the psychological and spiritual needs of the patient.. maybe the patient will feel more comfortable in the remaining days, spend more time with family members and take death to come naturally.. who knows how much things can be done in the remaining days and how much wishes can be fulfilled..

there is also the advance medical directive which is the living will that instructs doctors not to go to extremes to preserve life when a person can no long be saved. It has to be signed by the person himself and two witnesses, one of whom has to be a doctor. Medicator and palliative care will still be administered but not intensive care, like using a respirator to keep a person from dying.. so no the families will not be put in a difficult position to decide when to pull the plug..

there is no point in making a doctor a mercy killer..

Driving is fun!

Anything new to me is always fun.. haha..

the instructor is nice to me.. will joke and make the atmosphere not so awkward or nervous for me.. haha.. he says my biting point and braking is good.. got talent to drive manual yah.. haha.. but I always step too hard on the accelerator.. so hard to maintain it at 2000.. and I will get gan cheong.. haha.. nevermind.. will do better in 2nd lesson.. will be taking the basic theory this coming fri.. should be able to pass bah.. haha..

I hope to learn driving as fast as possible.. don't like to drag yah..

How can I be so careless?

I never so careless.. but I am now.. I lost $100 that does not belong to me at all.. why am I so absent minded.. I just believe myself.. I just lose it within 15 min.. from my jeans pocket.. hai~ I feel so bad.. ppl trusted me by handing me the money but I never safely bring it to where it should be..

I have to be very careful next time..

A pastime I love: Watch movies..

I actually have watched a number of movies but no time to review on them! some of them have passed so long le.. more than a month..

just last sat I watched Bolt.. the animated movie.. It is really a nice movie that really makes me laugh.. the behaviour of the animals in the movie will make you laugh.. the main character is Bolt who is so called a super dog on tv but in reality he is not.. this is the twist in the movie.. I am so bewildered by the power of the dog.. ran at super speed, shake the earth with his super bark and cut metal and glass with laser eyes.. how is it possible? I thought to myself.. haha.. then all the cameras and lights came.. but the dog itself don't know anything.. he thought he is really a super dog who always been saving his master, penny..

Penny is voiced by Miley Cyrus.. I think she is acting herself.. a very popular child actress..

the ignorant dog thinking that there is really a bad guy.. run away to save penny and then he incidentally was transported to new york city from hollywood.. he thought he had lost his power becos of the peanut styrofoam that he is contained in.. and he first time sees a red liquid from his paw and didn't know it is blood and first time hear the rumbling of his hungry stomach as he has never been hungry before.. I think this is showing the reality of the life our pet animals.. after they are born, they will only know things by the way they are raised and trained.. if they are never injured before, they will not what is blood..

with the help of mittens, the cat and rhino, the hamster, he found his way back to hollywood and the pets see some hope that actually there are some owners who will never abandoned them and forget them.. they see it in the case of bolt and penny.. and bolt is not a fake super dog at all.. he saved his master from the fire..

more than a month ago, I watched burn after reading becos of brad pitt.. haha.. okay lah.. not only becos of him.. I thought it will be a nice movie.. but I think it is not.. okay it is a black comedy but I think the comedy is actually some silly jokes.. the characters are so silly.. brad pitt is a hippy gym instructor doing funny actions.. not like him at all.. haha.. he is the first to die.. in a silly way and make you go "huh?? so fast??"

George clooney's character is so obsessed with sex that he makes a sex machine.. and John Malkovich punctuated his every sentence with uncountable "F" words.. Both are the killers in this movie..

Thinking that they have obtained a cd of top secrets of the CIA, the two employees from the gym tried to it to blackmail the ex-CIA agent and actually it is just some parts of the memoir of the agent.. and the silly episode continues with ppl get killed for nothing and no reasons..

To me, if you bought the dvd, you should just burn it after watching.. what is the point of keeping or watch again.. haha..

I also watched 2 dvds.. one is sky of love and the other connected..


I have always been wanting to watch Sky of Love (Koizora), a jap movie.. becos I have heard from many ppl that it is very touching and many ppl cried.. but to be honest, I never cried while watching this movie.. is the love story touching? maybe but not to the extent I will cry.. you may say I have no feeling like a mantou (cold joke).. but I did feel something.. I feel anger and pity the gal.. becos of the guy, she ended up being raped and become pregnant and then lose her unborn baby.. should all these things happen to a good gal like her? but she is never sad for long as long as she is with her bf.. her love for him is so deep.. the guy's love for her is also as deep.. he hopes for the happiness for her by giving her up but she just can't give him up.. why can't she? I never experience this kind of love before.. so I can't explain.. to me now, it is just silly.. between a nice guy who has loved and helped her a lot and a dying guy where the love is mutual and so deep, she has chosen the latter.. the comforting truth that she is happy with him and even if the time is short..


Connected also has good reviews from my friends.. it is an exciting action movie.. but the story just so so.. all the way just about saving a few ppl.. the women, her kid and her brother.. what so worth about watching is the exciting action.. flying and crashing of cars.. will a stranger go such a extent to save you? I think only in this movie.. he nearly become a wanted criminal becos her.. maybe an ordinary guy just wanted to do some heroic acts to prove that he is not useless at all..

The good of starfruit!

Starfruit has always been my favourite.. I love everything about it.. From its taste, its health benefits, its unique and colour.. haha..

I found a short description of it in last month's Cleo mag..

"Rockstar SUPERNOVA

Starfruit isn't merely a pretty fruit. Taiwanese researchers report that the insoluble fibre from the pulp of starfruit may carry about 11mg of Vitamin E per gram. Insoluble fibre contains cellulose, hemicellulose and lignin, which cannot be dissolved in water, and consumption of insoluble fibre has been associated with reducing the risk of obesity and diabetes."

yum, yum, yummy!

You are the anchorman!

what does it means? My dad said that to me yesterday and today..

Becos I have started earning money so I should be able to spend more for my parents.. it is a way to show filial piety.. therefore, when my mother's birthday comes, I should buy present and pay for the dinner and my father will just attend the dinner and pay for nothing.. what he will buy for my mother? a card and who will write the card? me!

yah.. I am not complaining about paying a lot for the birthday.. I should do these.. she is my mother.. I am happy to give my mother a watch that she really wants and she don't mind sharing it with me! haha.. To be honest, I never really give my mother anything precious.. yah.. I don't really care last time as I don't really like to spend my parents' money to buy things for my parents.. but now is different.. I am using my own money to buy something for her which is so much meaningful..

But the behaviour of my dad is not really nice yah.. what does he means by this? they are old husband and wife so gifts are not required anymore.. Will I like to have this kind of husband next time?

but why everything is me now? I know my dad likes to joke.. but sometimes the jokes are not funny at all.. "If I need money, I will let you know okay?" Is that what I have to face when I started working?

Before and After..

Before there is youtube, there is American's funniest videos!

haha.. just a random thought..