I'm okay..

have been quite emo last month.. becos of some frustrating things.. but I think these have happened due to my over-thinking-things problem.. I like to think too much.. anyway.. if you have read my previous post.. it is not really serious now.. I am still friend with the person.. and even quite close now in a way..

to those of you who have been quite concerned about me.. just want to let you know.. I am okay le.. don't worry.. I am not backstabbed or what.. i just feeling frustrated about how I was treated sometimes.. after throwing everything into my blog, I have felt so much better le..

actually, there is another person that I have problem with.. it has been quite some time.. I thought things have got better.. but not really.. I just don't really understand why the person can't treat me nicely.. I have tried my best to increase the interaction.. but that person still resist it strongly and even complain to others about me.. whether is jealousy or what.. or just dislike my face or personality.. I don't know.. I don't know when did I started the dislike or how.. I just don't understand.. am I really so irritating? maybe I should just stop talking to the person.. maybe that person will take the initiative to talk to me.. I just feel sad that ppl treat me like that with no serious reason..

maybe I should stay less sociable then I will not meet so many interpersonal problems.. last month is so happening and messy.. but everything has sort of quieten down.. maybe I am so obvious in turning ppl off.. yah.. if I am not interested, I will show it in a polite and obvious way.. haha.. and I think the hint should be quite effective as the results have shown.. maybe I should have played along since I am so free.. but that's not me.. don't like then don't like.. can't fake..

anyway.. I am also not so free now.. after seeing myself putting on a few kg and hearing ppl saying I am fat liao.. I have decided to exercise more! I have joined a gym and I hope the personal trainer can help me to look and feel better.. haha.. but I think it will be tough.. becos I am aching all over now.. I need to persever and committed so that the money that I put in will not go into the drain..

other than being occupied with exercising and driving.. yup my test is on 28th Apr.. but I can't manage to book enough lessons yet for my revision.. feel so gan cheong now.. haha.. I have become more busy with my work.. with a new project coming up.. I can't slack liao.. but I still looks so slack.. haha..