Trying to forget..

I have been searching hard for the causes of the situation that have been quite disturbing to me.. I feel frustrated by the unfairness.. what did I do to cause the bad impression? I have been too loud.. asked too much and talked too much.. but am I really asking too much and talking too much? I don't really think so.. I am just doing what I think is right.. am I too naive to think that I can act differently from the norm? I know this is unacceptable by the general group but I just want to change ppl's idea.. but seems like I am the one who pull all the eyes and trouble on myself.. I have to be careful.. now I understand why certain ppl will behave in a certain way.. I just have to learn to be like them.. but this is so not me..