I am not a cold person.. I'm warm-blooded.. haha..

becos I don't know any leng xiao hua.. in the senior interview, I was asked to say one.. I was stucked.. that was the most difficult question I faced in an interview.. I heard of many leng xiao hua but I don't usually remember it.. being a senior, need to know that meh.. then I fail in this aspect lor.. I can do anything but tell jokes.. but people will still laugh at me.. becos I just speak so funnily.. have funny expressions.. haha.. I also don't know how funny I was.. that's me leh.. so funny mah.. nevermind lor.. they happy can liao.. maybe I am a joke myself.. so I never appreciate other jokes very much...

My msn nick writes: I really believe in fate..

why leh?

becos I just get to meet some people so coincidentally so often.. when I was missing them.. they just appear in front of me.. is it I can feel that I will meet them later.. I just don't know.. it is impossible that I can predict the future bah.. this person when I was just thinking to meet him again.. he just appear shortly later.. why leh.. we just so you yuan.. I also found out something about this person that made me realise why I don't see him so often liao.. at least I know the reason.. then I quite happy.. hee..

actually these surprises of meeting people whom I am missing or thinking of.. makes me look forward to each day and meeting friends is actually a very happy thing.. no matter he or she just a hi bye friend or a closer friend.. I really like to see them around me.. make me not so lonely.. so sometimes I just seem so excited to see friends.. hee.. they really make my day!

It is a really useful talk! I like it!

haha.. I attended a personal grooming talk yesterday.. the first space event organised by space.. must support mah.. hee.. anyway got free gft also.. can also try out my luck in the lucky draw.. last year.. my comm did organise the same talk.. same speaker.. same free gifts.. but I had lecture then so never get to listen to the talk.. but I must say.. this time the new comm did a good job.. it was quite organised.. they know how to use that chance of publicising.. and they made it quite professional.. why they must wear so smart yah.. haha.. anyway.. good image.. My comm was good but the people who are really committed not as many as the new comm.. I think as they took a good first step.. every other events should also be not much problem de.. hee..

okay.. the talk is really helpful.. the speaker spoke so well but I think she has been saying that for don't know how many times liao.. haha.. I think the content of the talk is similar or exactly the same as the last one bah.. anyway.. I did learn a lot of stuff from this talk.. things about BO.. armpit hair..hee.. then about face.. different kinds of skin.. the skincare regime.. very helpful.. Imust learn more about this.. so I can say bye to my really oily and bad skin.. now I really hate to see pimples popping out of my face.. I always been chanting "pimples, pimples go away.." but no use de.. just last week I got few pimples and acne popped out of my nose.. so ugly.. so painful.. now better liao.. really don't wnt to see them again but my face is just so oily lor.. I think is genetic.. becos my father says when he is in his youth.. he got even more pimples on his face lor.. and also very oily.. I think he has pass down this bad gene to me lor.. why like that one..

I am quite flawless in lower secondary lor.. then reach upper sec.. pimples pop pop pop out of my face.. not so bad lah.. but still not nice mah.. especially when it grow on my nose.. so ming xian.. I remember people say I am the rudolf the red-nose reindeer lor.. so sad.. nvm.. in the end.. the person who laughs at me also got one on his nose.. so never laugh at people.. hee..

I really don't like to look bad in photos.. last time I don't really make any actions to correct it.. now I will.. I also look so big face in photos lor.. so I now do face exercise to make it slimmer.. hope it will work.. hee..

why my eyes easily tear..

I used to laugh at my mother for being so emotional.. when she watch those tv dramas.. where the characters are so pitiful or some people died.. the story is so sad.. she will cry.. and that time I don't even understand.. it is just a show mah.. why must cry leh? It is not something real.. I was like that until before I get to uni bah.. I was always untouched by the sad plots in tv shows or movies.. I don't really tear unnecessary but ironically, I am a cry baby at home.. when my parents scold me.. not even very harshly.. I will also cry becos of frustration.. I cried of anger bah.. not cry becos of sadness.. just don't know why.. I feel very strongly hurt when I am accused of something that I did not do.. maybe I not go in fighting back with words so I cry lor.. very ugly.. my parents just hate me cry and will scold me for that.. seems like I have no right to cry.. but I still like to be a cry baby.. even now.. haha..

outside.. I just like to act brave.. someone who don't cry easily or not at all.. maybe I just a tomboy.. haha.. so when I watch something sad.. I used to think it is silly to cry.. but don't know why.. after going into uni.. I still act brave in front of people.. I don't cry in front of others.. maybe there is just nothing to cry about.. but when I watch something sad on tv and movies.. I will just tears.. maybe I have grown up and become more emotional.. more like a lady bah.. I just cant control my emotion..

when I watch project runway finale.. when I saw jeffrey won.. I felt so happy for him that I tear becos he finally succeeded after going thru a bad childhood.. when I saw some touching or sad scenes on tv.. I also feel my heart become "sour" and then tear.. but I just tear silently.. I just don't want to let others around me know.. haha..

I sort of like crying.. I just feel better.. it is a good way of destressing for me..

haha.. my second time cooking this year.. haha

yah.. I said I will cook again and this time it is seafood spaghetti.. hee.. yummy yummy..

as nice as the first one.. yeah!

Movies..

I watched one last dance and a night in the museum this week..

I catched one last dance on my free day.. next week no more free day liao.. so sad.. I think one last dance is just a okay movie.. maybe becos I not used to watch an artistic movie bah.. it is quite weird.. the conversations made by the actors.. quite broken mandarin.. really can hear that it is translated from an english script.. but the shooting way is quite new.. added some visual effects like the spatter of blood.. animated one.. actually give a small surprise at the end.. the scenes at the first part jump here and there then towards the end they are arranged in a proper sequence.. I never knew the story go that way..

something spoilt my mood of watching this movie are the loud conversation made by a mother and her son.. the son will shout out his comments.. the mother also make phone call in the movie itself.. where got people like that one.. so frustrating.. some people tried to "shh.." at them but they just continue.. I just bear with it lor.. luckily they are quite far behind.. then beside came some noise mad by a person tapping his legs to the music.. oh my goodness.. this was the first time I have such bad experience in this neighbourhood cinema.. I think it is better to watch at times with less people lor.. more quiet.. after the lights come on.. I turn to see the mother and son and beside me.. I see the cinema have many students lor.. and the one tapping feet is a student also.. after observing the behaviour of that son.. I think he is not so normal so I forgive him lor.. can't help it one mah..

Yesterday, I watched "a night at the museum".. no wonder it is a family show.. it is funny and entertaining.. not bad.. makes you more light-hearted.. hee.. when I knew it is acted by ben stiller.. I have guessed it is a comedy liao.. although the preview.. seems like a thriller.. worth the ticket money..

I don't like rainy sch days..

why leh? becos cannot stay at home to sleep mah.. and it makes travelling so dificult.. will have jams.. have to take sheltered route and take an umbrella..so troublesome.. rainy days make your mood not so good lor..

Photo taken in a bus.. the rain will stop for a few minutes then start again.. very heavily.. and it have been like that for the past few days.. continuously..

the weather forcast never accurate.. I don't trust it lor..

today better liao.. not much raining.. still cloudy but there still a bit of sunshine.. good!

this first week of sch I have been doing quite well.. never fall asleep in class.. great achievement.. haha.. if not.. very jia lat.. like what a friend say.. and my this friend promised that he will also jiayou leh.. will not skip class liao.. I will wait and see.. hee..

I also know how to cook okay.. hee

I agree that I like eating a lot.. I am not really choosy.. except the strong smelling celery and the hot chili.. I can eat a bit of chili but not too much becos I will tear..

last sat.. I just don't know why.. I wanted to eat pasta.. I feel so strongly about eating spaghetti that I suggest to my mum "why don't we eat spaghetti, I cook for you." strange right.. I am so lazy de.. I like to eat but don't really like to cook.. I roughly know how to cook lah but still need my mum help a bit.. heehee.. I must say cooking spaghetti is fast and easy but preparing the ingredients is not so easy.. have to spend time cutting and chopping.. as I am not so experienced.. have to do slowly lor.. on sun.. I cooked chicken mushroom spaghetti.. the veggies and other liao4 a lot lor.. cannot be bought outside de.. taste not bad lor.. my mum also say very good.. hee.. she cannot say not good mah.. hee.. and I, this big chef seldom cook one okay.. only when my mood is good then show my skill okay.. hee..

May not look as nice as those sold outside but really taste nice.. heehee..

so nice that I finished everything.. haha..

actually the ingredients are all bought from the new large supermarket that is open near my house lah.. the fairprice xtra.. just like another giant lor.. even sell clothes that is not really fashionable.. and also electronic stuff.. the mall that it is located in have not open yet but this supermarket has already open liao.. amazing.. but I think it will take some time for the mall to open as I can see some shop spaces are still not taken up yet.. as the supermarket is open.. some other shops in the mall also follow suit.. open for business.. with the construction still carry on around them..

is it illegal to take photo in a shopping mall? ha.. the supermarket just open not long.. already has so many people going there.. it proves how much everybody are looking forward to the opening of the AMK hub.. or should I say that is the kaisu and kaypo attitude?

The never ending number of counters.. they are all open leh..

but the things there are not so cheap leh.. my favorite asparagus is more ex liao.. why leh.. and becos of that my mum don't want to buy that.. so sad..

hee.. today I will be cooking spaghetti again.. today is different.. seafood one..

I really want to exercise.. but too lazy to do so.. hee..

now I actually have 6 hours of break until my next lect.. what am I going to do.. really don't know.. so write blog lor..

like what I write for the title.. I really want to exercise.. lead a healthy lifestyle.. haha.. but.. I just too lazy.. okay.. now I plan to always walk to nus from dover and exercise during the weekend.. but when I reach the weekend.. will I really do it? it's another case.. haha.. I don't really like to jog.. maybe skipping is better.. anyway.. I have wanted to join the hip hop dance class.. I really want to learn but my mother is just so discouraging.. "what if you have homework and you are busy with studies, how can you cope with an additional class".. "what if".. why so many "what if".. but I must say that my interest really do not last long.. wanted to learn something.. always cannot last long.. haha..don't know is get tired of it or lazy liao..

okay.. back to exercise.. I really hope there will be a sports outing or games day organised soon.. last sem.. I have went for nite cycling, games day, organised by sci club.. haha.. take the chance to exercise.. then there was the sports camp in the hol and BB also organised a badminton outing.. though the turn up for the outing not good.. also got a chance to exercise.. hee..

Sports camp is okay only.. becos everyday spoilt by the rain.. too many drops of water on the shirt bah.. quite bored sometimes.. but really enjoyed the heart attack times.. haha.. my OG really like that.. hee.. first day got rafting and water bomb war.. quite interesting.. first time do rafting mah.. supposedly we are supposed to stay over in tents at east coast but becos of the rain.. it is changed to stayover in sch.. it was a good news for us.. haha.. maybe we pampered too much liao.. but the tents were really squeezy mah.. hee.. then first night got cooking with SP.. my first SP.. but is with shijun.. somebody I know.. sad lor.. haha.. the next day was supposedly to be a tiring day.. got high elements, sailing, bbq at night.. but not so leh.. sailing not enough lor.. I just managed to stand up then there say change over liao.. so sad lor.. I haven't managed to move my sail much lor.. high elements were not as exciting as the ones I have done in JC.. YLTC.. especially the flying fox.. the high elements were at AMK ITE.. so near my house lor.. that night.. has bbq.. my OG ate so much lor.. and they quite AS one.. don't join the games.. then our buddy OG left that night.. bad example.. influence my OG people.. the next day.. early early then left liao.. but actually also nothing lah.. only got lucky draw and one game.. quite sad.. only can blame the rain.. haha..







actually last sem, I also joined IFG floorball.. for the last two years I never join.. why suddenly I join leh? haha.. becos I want to exercise mah.. I thought of havingfun mah.. never think of winning anything at all.. anyway.. our team also don't have many regular floorball players.. only the captain.. Yihui.. I join also becos she is in charged.. Arts, Law and Med.. are thought to be very strong.. but surprisingly, we beat med and got 3rd.. Yeah! Very happy lor.. and I got my first NUS medal.. heehee..

the bronze medal!

The IFG floorball girls team.. Yeah!

the many many things.. gatherings! Part 3

haha.. I got a part 3 for this becos I digress in Part 2.. haha.. I actually want to talk about my gatherings then end up talking about studies again.. haha..

one of my friends say "you have so many outings. no wonder your mother says you spent a lot of money lah." haha.. I agree.. but I am always free to go mah.. i only have 1 sec sch outing with 2 sec sch friends who are also my jc friends too.. in sec sch.. I don't have many friends.. becos.. I too fierce bah and don't like to be in cliques.. these 2 friends.. I have them after knowing them a long period of time thru sec and jc.. we went to vivocity.. my first time there.. and the direction signs are all so confusing.. I saw in the newspaper that they have received a lot of complaints about it and they will changed all the signs.. that's good..

then I have few outing with BB people.. play badminton, play pool and bowl, go escape! and watch death note.. my friend says "Don't you feel weird going out with the freshies when most of the time you are the only senior there?" actually I don't leh.. why leh? maybe the guys are the same age as me bah.. and I also get along with them well.. but although sometimes I did feel the generation gap and I don't like them to call me da jie leh.. so old.. but when the gals who are 2 years younger than me.. call me that.. I will take the initiative to lang ta men lor..

going escape at $6 really worth it.. I don't know how many years didn't go liao lor.. but I must say that the night before going to the theme park, should sleep well.. without enough sleep, I easily felt tired taking the rides and after the pirate ship, I really felt giddy lor.. and also want to vomit like that.. not feeling very well.. luckily that day, I got something on at night then left early liao..

I went to ktv with zeus and on the 2nd Jan.. I have bbq with them.. it is one bbq that I really enjoyed and put in effort.. nowadays bbq always use marinated food bought from bbq wholesale.. no need to use too much efforts to do preparation.. this bbq.. we met at giant to buy the raw food, even the prawns and sotong.. we got no time to do marination so we bought those marinated ones.. but for fish fillet, prawns and sotong.. we have to prepare them.. I did not do much lah.. but I really impressed by how each person contributed to the bbq.. everybody really play their part so I really enjoyed this bbq.. and after the bbq, we have some gossip session.. haha..

talking about gossip yah.. BB got one "gossip" that every outing somebody will definitely ask about it.. it is not true but don't know why everybody will think it is true.. why leh? only those related people will know bah.. haha.. but I definitely believe it is not true lah..

I also had an gethering with our SOW05 comm people.. although we may not be as bonded as SOW06 comm has seemed.. and not as high and happening as them but we also happening in our own way and it's great that we can still gather together to have a bbq.. the 38 people still as excited and high as before and we still have our 38 sessions.. really miss hearing from each other.. I really hope we can still have this kind of gathering in the future..

the many many things.. gatherings! Part 2

I have been saying in one previous entry that I got many many gatherings.. yup.. other than JC ones also have my sec sch friends and my OG ones, BB and zeus..

actually I forgot to say that at one of my JC gatherings, yah the Cheryl's birthday one.. I told my old classmates that I am already tired of studying already.. losing the drive.. and they are quite shocked about it.. "huh? Stephanie can also be sick of studying? Really cannot believe that.." really that hard to believe mah.. that proves how nerdy I am then.. but I am human mah.. I willl also change de..

actually there is also one incident that made me quite cannot believe.. I already said before that I have lost the drive and momentum to study right.. then towards the end of last sem.. there were many tests and assignments and I tried to catch up but feel so exhausted... then there was one day.. I cannot really remember clearly but that day I was carrying my notes while taking the lift up to my storey.. then in the same lift, there were these two chinese auntie and malay uncle.. I don't know them and they don't know me too.. but that uncle saw me taking a note and trying to read.. then he asked me where I am studying.. feeling quite shocked, then I say NUS.. I really not used to talking to strangers.. then he tell me must study hard.. it may not be easy studying now.. but you will "suffer" now and have a good life and future after that.. I really confused by what he say but I still thanked him for his encouragement.. that uncle left the lift at 5th storey and then left me and the auntie.. after the uncle left, the auntie also told me that must studying hard and jia you.. cherish the chance to study as people who did not receive good education will always envy those who had a degree and regret why they did not study hard.. I also gave a smile to the auntie and say bye to her when she left at 9th storey.. I really don't understand the thing that had happened in the lift.. did somebody sent these two people to enlighten me and encourage me when I really want to give up on studying.. I really can't believe it and I tell myself not to think too much.. I just happen to have two good neighbours.. but I really want them for giving me the encouragement.. I am really enlightened by it..

Feel the same way..

In the this hol, I finally finished reading the book "The Diary of a Young Girl" by Anne Frank.. This is the diary written by Anne Frank during the Second World War.. She was a Jew and had died with her family just before the War ended.. very sad.. they were in hiding during the war and had waited for the day that the war end.. they were so near to that.. just a few more months bah.. but they were caught by the German people.. anne was said to have killed by a epidemic in the concentration camp.. I not sure whether this diary is totally true but I just feel the details written in this book are so real.. since it is written during the war, of course there are details about the war news and raids.. and anne also wrote about her life as a teenager.. very real..

Why did anne started this diary? "I feel like writing and I have an even greater need to get all kinds of thing off my chest.. .. 'Paper has more patience than people'... .. I don't have a friend... .. I have loving parents and a sixteen-year-old sister and there are about thirty people I can call friends.. .. I have a family, loving aunts and a good home. No, on the surface I seem to have everything, except my one true friend. All I think about when I'm with friends is having a good time. I can't bring myself to talk about anything but ordinary everyday things. We don't seem to be able to get any closer and that's the problem. Maybe it's my fault that we don't confide in each other..." I extracted these out of the book.. Anne treated her diary just like a friend.. she called it "Kitty".. telling her almost everything.. maybe she is her most rebellious period.. she can't really get along with her parents.. especially her mother.. and she don't really respect her mother.. luckily she met a best friend.. Peter who is also hiding and living under the same roof.. actually he is her boyfriend..

I really see some similarities with her in her reasons of writing a diary.. I am also in the same situation as her.. I really don't have a true friend.. one who I can talk a lot of things with.. but these few months.. I actually feel that I have found a few friends who can develop to be my true friends.. I actually can have true friends.. can't really believe it.. really! For so many years, I have friends but best friends or buddies? none.. therefore I have this blog.. who can be my true friend bah.. but there are still some secrets that are kept just in my mind and heart.. actually I quite envy anne.. who can find peter to be her very good friend.. when can I find my "peter"? haha..

you must be thinking "anne frank" quite familiar.. and I think many people have read this many years ago already.. when they are children but I waited until now then read this book.. I have wanted to read this very long ago.. but only last year that I bought and start reading.. I really like books that are about war.. especially the way germans or japanese had totured the people.. is not that I am sadistic.. I just like history.. I like to know the real experience that people had.. I always will feel sad and touched by the strength that the people had against their enemies and torturer.. they never gave up and that really touched me.. and give me the drive to treasure my life..

Another diary that also interest me is not a war diary but a diary that is also familiar to me.. what is described in this diary is also what had happened to be me in my teenage life.. something closer to my heart.. this diary was narrated by peifen on FM933.. Da tou fen de shi jie.. the stories can also be found at www.datoufen.blogspot.com. I heard it once on radio and really like the stories.. and I can never miss the episodes becos I can download them as podcasts.. can found at www.podcast.com.sg. the charater da tou fen also has too much things in her mind that she need to write them all down in her blog.. is everyone who writes blog feels this way?

Some interesting things that I saw..

I saw this in yesterday's paper so took an photo of it.. not very clear yah.. but it is an article about brow shape.. for round face, should have this brow shape shape to make the face longer and slimmer.. haha.. that's what I want.. hee.. okay lah.. my face sometimes look round mah.. especially when I smile.. anyway.. I trying to get my face less round liao.. do more face exercise..haha.. and also eat less rice to get the extra fat out of my body..

another interesting thing is the recycling centres that suddenly appear in my estate.. I have one below my block.. and I being packing and packing my stuff.. just threw one pack of papers into that large bin.. paper, glass, plastic and clothes.. can be recycled.. haha.. seems like not many people take note of that bah.. the bin seems empty.. but better than having some redundant rubbish in there bah..

I have watched the confession of pain, "shang cheng" on Wed.. I should not have watched it alone lah.. quite scary.. with all the murders and it was a really sad story.. and Tony Leung and Jin Cheng Wu really are very good actors.. really shuai also.. heehee.. and I found the lead actress.. if I not wrong.. should be Xu Jing Lei.. look like Zhang Ziyi leh.. haa.. This movie is really a nice movie to watch.. should watch it..

First day of school..

haha.. yah.. it's first day of sch for primary, secondary and jc but not for me.. me still have less than one week of holiday before sch starts.. haha.. but it's so short.. in no time I will be busy going for lectures, doing tutorials and doing reports and projects.. I really don't want sch to start so fast.. help! I will have morning lectures.. even those starts at 8 am.. I cannot sleep until 10 plus or even 1 pm anymore.. so sad..

last sem is a terrible sem.. in my previous entries.. I had said how unable to study I am.. how unable to do well.. and give up already..I really hope nothing of these will happen again this coming sem.. if not I really give up liao.. may not be even doing honours.. having second lower no point in doing honour.. why not go to work.. don't waste the one year..

last sem.. I really did not do well.. after some analysis.. I found that I should not be so greedy.. take 6 modules and even 1 is 6 mc one.. I am crazy.. my friends also said so.. I thought I am superwoman yah.. I hope I am.. haha.. and the momentum did not start well at the beginning of the sem.. with me did not sleep well during sow.. busy with sci club stuff.. then the internal elections with so many nights cannot sleep well and enough.. then every weekend until stepping down.. I will have activities to do and participate.. after stepping down.. I became so lost.. so lack of the drive to study.. too tired liao.. with so many projects coming up.. rush this rush that.. don't have to revise anything.. did not treat tests seriously and did pay attention in lectures.. sleep in lectures.. in the result.. did poorer than anybody else for the modules.. even the experimental module that I spent the longest time to do.. also did the worst.. why is it like that.. waste of effort.. or my effort is still not sufficient.. it never was.. it is a 6mc module.. even more effort have to be put in.. my cap has dropped below 4 liao.. not surprised at all.. and nothing to be sad about.. if not some people will kill me.. what bad for me.. is still something better for some people.. I should not complain about it.. I should not..

Modules that I thought that I will never understand.. actually I do them well de.. is just that I did not read notes and revise properly.. I should not have failed in the tests at all.. I went thru them before final exams.. and I found how dumb I was.. I actually can do them well if I have do the revisions.. I tried my best in exams but it's still too late.. CA is still quite a big percentage.. nevermind.. it will be a lesson for me.. YES, IT WILL..

I never give up so easily de.. anyway.. during the preparation of final exams.. I have found a better way to study liao.. I should not be so stubborn and stick to my old sch way.. it is no use now.. I only know memorising the facts but I cannot apply them at all.. I used to don't do my tutorials and put them in lower priority so my grades never can get better.. this way can only be used in pri sch and not now liao.. so I decided to change it.. since I thinking that I cannot do well liao.. so I risk it.. change my way.. do all the tutorials.. study them and put lecture notes as lower priority.. anyway I don't have much time to do so many things and actually some tutorial questions may also come out in exams.. now then I know and at least this time round.. I know how to apply the stuff that I learn and not only just memorise them.. and my memory has got so worst that I quickly forgot what I memorise the next day.. no use liao..

now that I know what my parents say are right.. I just too stubborn.. now I then realised..

My new skin!

oh yah! I forgot to talk about my new blogskin.. nice or not yah.. I feel it is better than the last one.. I really like the red skin and the words are clearer and bigger now.. can see more clearly.. and it is rock star! yeah! something related to rock! I really feel I have the rock blood flowing in me.. haha..

myspace...

What is myspace.com? out of curiosity.. I created an account.. this is what I wrote on my profile..

About me:
I am at a loss.. I not sure what I want exactly.. many things in my mind.. I want to be best in something but still have not found it yet.. am I so ordinary? When it's time to play, I will enjoy myself fully and let it all out.. but I think too much.. always dreaming but the dreams don't seem to come true.. is it me too lazy to carry them out.. or am I too timid.. must be both.. think too much and so quite moody sometimes.. but I always aim to live life happily and fulfilling.. YEAH!
Who I'd like to meet:
People who want to be my friends.. people who share the same interests and thoughts as me.. anybody who are true..

within a few days that I started my profile.. some people asked to be added as friends.. although I don't know them.. I just added them.. I don't care.. anyway just for fun.. maybe useful next time.. anyway.. no harm..

myspace address can be found in links..

the many many things.. gatherings!

This holiday has quite a number of gatherings.. with jc classmates.. one with the "holland V gals".. why do i call them the holland v gals.. becos we always meet at holland village.. used to always have dinner at coffee club there.. this time change to zhicha.. the XO fish bee hoon.. something different.. it is sort of to celebrate 2 of the gals' birthdays and also christmas.. this is what we always been doing liao.. celebrating birthday by having dinner together.. after the dinner.. this time we went to chill out at the eski bar I tried the lychee martini.. becos I heard about it so this time I wanted to try it.. not bad.. at first it tasted sweet of lychee then the bitterness of the alcohol.. but really ex.. more than $10.. once in the while bah.. but I really feel the "pain".. ouch! the bar is really for eskimos.. really cold..

there are also a jc friends gathering becos of birthday party.. it was cheryl's birthday.. her younger sister also in science and also in science club marketing comm.. it's nice to know her.. but I did not catch her name.. really sorry.. but she recognised me as the "space person".. not bad.. people really listen to what I say in MC talk and they always say I talk very funny.. really so funny meh..

then on 29th Dec.. another jc class gathering at sarah's house.. for christmas celebration.. actually some of them already met at Mrs Che's wake on 27th.. I did not go.. Mrs che was our bio teacher during JC 2.. a really nice teacher.. she had been very ill the last 2 years..

anyway.. we really have good thai food at Sarah's house.. and then there were some chatting, card games, singing and looking at some of her photos in London and our past photos.. really nice gathering.. remember the good time we had.. the choir people really like to sing.. always singing the songs that they sang in JC.. the christmas songs.. then some of the guys very bo liao.. play poker and have star jumps as forfeits in front of all the guests.. sarah really have grown very thin.. must be becos of her sickness.. really shocked to see her like this.. quite worried for her.. studying overseas is not easy.. hope to see her look better the next time..

The choir people singing happily..

Some of the guys..

oh yah.. these 2 photos are taken with my new camera phone.. yeah! I have a new hp.. so happy.. it is a nokia 6288..

and this our best class photo!

the many many things.. movies! Part 2

In my previous previous entry.. I said I watched eragon right.. actually I found out that the theme song " Keep holding on " is sang by avril lavigne.. no wonder I felt the song quite familiar.. It is really a nice song.. the song can be found here.. http://www.t3rbo.com/audio/view.php?play=ca0914b0d80a85277d597c9aaaa73485..

okay.. I have watched Death note 2 already.. yesterday afternoon.. new year eve.. oh yah.. Happy belated new year.. haha.. the show not bad.. but I feel a bit draggy and boring in the middle..but the ending is good.. unexpected.. but I must say the movie makes light really like a devil.. he really wanted to be the god of the new world that he will even kill his father.. what god is he to be like that.. he is really selfish.. and not a noble "god".. he should die.. but I really sad that L also die.. he really sacrificed himself.. he is really doing this for justice.. there surely be some holes in justice.. but that doesn't mean that Light can use that as an excuse to kill people.. even those innocent ones..

although it was new year eve.. nobody ask me out for countdown.. as usual.. but I was wondering.. is it necessary to go out for countdown.. I don't know.. I never being to countdown party except for the millenium one.. someone told me that it is stupid.. stay at home is better.. maybe becos no need to squeeze with people bah.. and I never seen the real fireworks.. really.. I mean it.. I only saw those telecast on tv.. never heard the real one.. seen the real one.. haha.. is it quite sad?

Avril Lavigne, my favorite..

Few days ago.. I read about avril lavigne.. who is my favourite singer lah.. it's being quite a long time that she did not have a new album.. really looking forward to that.. really like her songs.. I still remembered hearing her first song "complicated" on the radio and like it a lot already.. that time she is still not so famous.. I always missed out her name on radio.. so one time I tried to listen carefully to her name and roughly figured out and went to the CD shop to look for her album.. and I found it.. all my friends don't know who she is then.. sometimes I just will buy the cd if I like the song.. don't care whether he or she is a famous or popular singer.. For tong en and cherry boom (ying tao bang).. this is also the case.. many of my friends still don't know who they are.. so when I sang their songs in ktv.. my friends will not know who they are..

I don't know exactly why I was attracted to avril lavigne's songs.. maybe they are of punk/pop/rock style.. which is my favourite.. and the lyrics are also those that I agree with.. I sometimes hope I can be like her.. have her attitude.. I really hope so.. like to do then do.. the "attitude" or should I say have the attitude problem.. in side me.. I am not the goody good gal at all.. I am rebellious.. I am just controlling myself somehow.. to be the good gal in front of my parents.. if my parents are not around.. I don't know what will become of me.. really cannot imagine..

in ktv.. I just like to sing avril's songs.. shout out.. like releasing myself.. I really enjoyed it..

okay now back to her news.. this year.. with no new album released.. she has acted in few movies.. voice of a cartoon character in the animated movie "Over the Hedge".. If I did not remember wrongly.. one of the animals.. I watched that.. she also got married to a sum 41 member.. at the age of 22.. she is 1 year older than me.. very young to get married right.. actually she has been wanting to get married.. from what I know..

she already got married and me.. I am still studying.. actually I feel getting married is not a bad thing at all.. I will if I already met someone I love.. people may think I am crazy to think this way.. but I really think this way.. I really not very keen on just concentrate on studying liao.. but even if I ever get married.. I can still carry on studying or working.. nothing wrong.. to be married and have children is also not bad after all.. but whether I can find the "right person" is another case.. I am still looking..

getting into a relationship maybe not bad.. to have someone who love you.. care for you.. share your problems is not bad after all.. at least you will not feel lonely for so much time.. sometimes I am surrounded by so many couples.. that I just feel weird and out of place.. but just can't help it.. some people also have the same experience and feeling as me.. some people can so easily find gf/bf.. don't know why.. they are just so popular in this sense.. no matter they are good looking or not.. sometimes look does not matter.. maybe some chemistry that is working.. or is it the work of some hormones..

maybe I have a turn-off face.. or I too ambitious.. too strong.. too loud.. too rough.. too much like a boy that scares people away.. or have too many friends that make people think I not lonely at all.. who will like me.. anyway.. I have been warned not to get into any relationship yet.. must concentrate on studies.. studies more impt.. you will guess who said it lah.. but who cares.. those clever people also have gf and bf mah.. they still did well.. what logic is that.. I really don't understand..