First day of school..

haha.. yah.. it's first day of sch for primary, secondary and jc but not for me.. me still have less than one week of holiday before sch starts.. haha.. but it's so short.. in no time I will be busy going for lectures, doing tutorials and doing reports and projects.. I really don't want sch to start so fast.. help! I will have morning lectures.. even those starts at 8 am.. I cannot sleep until 10 plus or even 1 pm anymore.. so sad..

last sem is a terrible sem.. in my previous entries.. I had said how unable to study I am.. how unable to do well.. and give up already..I really hope nothing of these will happen again this coming sem.. if not I really give up liao.. may not be even doing honours.. having second lower no point in doing honour.. why not go to work.. don't waste the one year..

last sem.. I really did not do well.. after some analysis.. I found that I should not be so greedy.. take 6 modules and even 1 is 6 mc one.. I am crazy.. my friends also said so.. I thought I am superwoman yah.. I hope I am.. haha.. and the momentum did not start well at the beginning of the sem.. with me did not sleep well during sow.. busy with sci club stuff.. then the internal elections with so many nights cannot sleep well and enough.. then every weekend until stepping down.. I will have activities to do and participate.. after stepping down.. I became so lost.. so lack of the drive to study.. too tired liao.. with so many projects coming up.. rush this rush that.. don't have to revise anything.. did not treat tests seriously and did pay attention in lectures.. sleep in lectures.. in the result.. did poorer than anybody else for the modules.. even the experimental module that I spent the longest time to do.. also did the worst.. why is it like that.. waste of effort.. or my effort is still not sufficient.. it never was.. it is a 6mc module.. even more effort have to be put in.. my cap has dropped below 4 liao.. not surprised at all.. and nothing to be sad about.. if not some people will kill me.. what bad for me.. is still something better for some people.. I should not complain about it.. I should not..

Modules that I thought that I will never understand.. actually I do them well de.. is just that I did not read notes and revise properly.. I should not have failed in the tests at all.. I went thru them before final exams.. and I found how dumb I was.. I actually can do them well if I have do the revisions.. I tried my best in exams but it's still too late.. CA is still quite a big percentage.. nevermind.. it will be a lesson for me.. YES, IT WILL..

I never give up so easily de.. anyway.. during the preparation of final exams.. I have found a better way to study liao.. I should not be so stubborn and stick to my old sch way.. it is no use now.. I only know memorising the facts but I cannot apply them at all.. I used to don't do my tutorials and put them in lower priority so my grades never can get better.. this way can only be used in pri sch and not now liao.. so I decided to change it.. since I thinking that I cannot do well liao.. so I risk it.. change my way.. do all the tutorials.. study them and put lecture notes as lower priority.. anyway I don't have much time to do so many things and actually some tutorial questions may also come out in exams.. now then I know and at least this time round.. I know how to apply the stuff that I learn and not only just memorise them.. and my memory has got so worst that I quickly forgot what I memorise the next day.. no use liao..

now that I know what my parents say are right.. I just too stubborn.. now I then realised..