why my eyes easily tear..

I used to laugh at my mother for being so emotional.. when she watch those tv dramas.. where the characters are so pitiful or some people died.. the story is so sad.. she will cry.. and that time I don't even understand.. it is just a show mah.. why must cry leh? It is not something real.. I was like that until before I get to uni bah.. I was always untouched by the sad plots in tv shows or movies.. I don't really tear unnecessary but ironically, I am a cry baby at home.. when my parents scold me.. not even very harshly.. I will also cry becos of frustration.. I cried of anger bah.. not cry becos of sadness.. just don't know why.. I feel very strongly hurt when I am accused of something that I did not do.. maybe I not go in fighting back with words so I cry lor.. very ugly.. my parents just hate me cry and will scold me for that.. seems like I have no right to cry.. but I still like to be a cry baby.. even now.. haha..

outside.. I just like to act brave.. someone who don't cry easily or not at all.. maybe I just a tomboy.. haha.. so when I watch something sad.. I used to think it is silly to cry.. but don't know why.. after going into uni.. I still act brave in front of people.. I don't cry in front of others.. maybe there is just nothing to cry about.. but when I watch something sad on tv and movies.. I will just tears.. maybe I have grown up and become more emotional.. more like a lady bah.. I just cant control my emotion..

when I watch project runway finale.. when I saw jeffrey won.. I felt so happy for him that I tear becos he finally succeeded after going thru a bad childhood.. when I saw some touching or sad scenes on tv.. I also feel my heart become "sour" and then tear.. but I just tear silently.. I just don't want to let others around me know.. haha..

I sort of like crying.. I just feel better.. it is a good way of destressing for me..