To that special someone...

I want to tell this special someone that I really want to thank him for
making me laugh and happy..
remembering my words..
understanding me..
giving me his smile..
not feeling bored by me..

I really hope that you can always be somewhere close to me.. for as long as possible.. and answer to my every sms.. really hope so..

V day..

last wed is V day..

me no dates.. sad right.. haha.. but I did receive some things from friends.. really paiseh.. I never give them any..

I bought cakes for my parents.. hee.. actually is I want to eat lah.. then the space ppl persuade me to buy two lor.. initially only want to buy one.. but 3 of them surround me lor. no choice but buy 2.. support them lor.. and becos of my greediness.. I finish the concord and end up having a sore throat and cough.. sad...

the cake with nice packaging..

The royaltine.. was in my father's stomach last week.. haha..

My family history..

my father sometimes just like to tell me again and again what happened when he was young.. so is last last thurs.. so I made used of that chance to ask him more about the older history.. about my great grandmother..

she was really from china but came to Singapre with her family.. her brother.. quite an accomplished family.. quite well-off.. her brother worked as cold storage manager.. imagine so long ago got supermarket already.. then she was married to malaysia then lived in a kampong.. that time my great grandfather was the village head.. then WWII takes place and my great grandfather with his buddies were caught by some japanese and there were no news about them already.. there were rumours that they were shot to death.. I never know this kind of sad story to happen to someone close to me.. my great grandmother becomes a widow.. they had a son who was my grandfather, my father's father..

My father and uncle came with great grandmother to Singapore.. to be able to receive education in Singapore.. my father and uncle has to sort of "adopted " by relatives in Singapore and their surname was changed from koh to that of their "new" family.. so I have the surname "Ho" now.. my aunt joined them in Singapore later.. actually they have a younger sister but she was given away after she was born.. and becos of delivering her, my grandmother passed away of difficult labour.. another sad story..

In singapore, my great grandmother had her second marriage.. who is the great grandfather that was still around when I am just a child.. when my father was young, he had to go school and helped great grandmother with work at the same time.. they worked in the cane factory.. earning very minimal.. they really had hardship in the past.. my father says "it's becos our older generations had suffer hardship that now, our generation can have a better life.."

From my father, I also know more about the other relatives we had.. the second wife of my grandfather, the god daughter of my great granddaughter.. "our family women really suffer a lot" my father said..

this is the most interesting history lesson I had..

Gong xi gong xi gong xi ni..

Happy lunar new year to everyone! Yeah! today is the first day of this important festival.. which I really like.. can get ang baos mah.. hee hee hee.. me happy but not my mum.. she has to give ang bao.. this is the day of the year that I have more "income".. but my xin nian not as happening as some people lor.. I just visit a temple at joo chiat with my parents in the morning then visit a relative's house.. then that's all.. that relative is my aunt.. my father's elder sister..




long time ago when my great grandmother was still around.. many many relatives will come to my house.. very happening.. but not for me.. my cousins are either too old or too young.. nobody my age.. got generation gap yah.. so don't really communicate with them.. not even card games or mahjong lah.. After my great grandmother passed away.. it's our turn to visit the other elderlys.. my grand aunties.. then after they also left us.. our family ties seem to be not so close already.. quite sad lor.. since my father is counted as the elder.. people should visit our house but the last few years don't see them leh.. hai~ now the family ties not so strong liao.. maybe one day our family will also need to "escape from new year".. go travelling lor..

actually new year other than the ang baos.. also not very fun for me lah.. like visiting my aunt's house.. once I sit down.. I am just like stuck to the sofa lor.. just eat the tibits and watch tv.. they have SCV.. so I got to watch one episode of "CSI: NY".. haha.. at least got something i like.. I saw a card that is pasted on the wall.. it is given to my aunt on her birthday by her grandson.. not bad leh.. he is only 2 plus.. then know how to write chinese and do colouring.. I am impressed and touched by the words inside.. in chinese "I love you. Happy birthday".. I sort of suspected that the card may not be purely done by him bah.. must be his parents got help.. because the words are written quite nicely.. my this small cousin is so cute lor.. always smile de.. but sometimes also throw temper by lying on the floor.. roll here and there.. haha..

The birthday card..

tmr I will be going to Malaysia, visit my grandmother and relatives.. after so many years, I finally going during new year period.. becos got one week break mah.. talking about the break.. I not really happy lor.. 3 days of holidays wasted by putting it in the break lor.. okay lah.. also becos of this.. I get to go malaysia mah.. this time also no tests immediately after the holidays.. my father thinks that I don't like to go malaysia lor.. actually not lor.. he don't understand me enough.. I actaully long to go there lor.. can get to see some relatives whom I long time never see.. but becos of going to malaysia.. I may not get to watch "men tu" with my freshies lor.. cannot go to the outing that I initially organised.. at first quite sad lah.. nvm.. as long as they are happy.. I will feel happy.. anyway there is another gathering on thurs..

A happening sunday..

sunday.. I did my first part-time job of the year.. pay is $50.. not bad lah.. I am called an events coordinator.. sound nice.. something new for me.. quite fun.. it is for a bank.. sort of helping to attract people into the branch so that the personal bankers got a chance to talk to them to intro them to the new plan for fixed deposit.. I am in charge of a simple game.. asking people to pick ang bao from a plant and open up.. there will be a free gift.. the free gifts not very attractive lah.. some plastic bottle, memo clip, towel.. not expensive stuff.. I will not be attracted to that but many other people seem to like that.. no wonder Singaporeans are kaisu and some are also quite greedy.. okay lah.. only a few of them.. some really want to know about the new plan lah.. to learn how to earn more money..

I was told to get there early.. but it is so early that the bankers and managers are not there yet.. I have to wait almost 1 hour for them lor.. who told me to reach early yah.. and during the work.. I am so busy with opening ang bao and hanging them that I have no time to eat lor.. when I have time.. it is 4 plus already.. no point to eat then lor.. I will be eating dinner soon liao.. no wonder the branch manager told me to go and eat in the morning.. he expected to be busy in the day.. I am so stupid lor.. and the whole time I am not clever to siam lor.. not like the experienced emcee.. who escaped a few times and came late.. now I know.. next time I will be clever.. the bank don't even have lunch time.. the bankers and managers work in shifts.. hai~ this is really a chance for exposure.. a chance to experience real working life..

actually it is quite interesting lah.. never know people will be loyal to a bank.. especially the elderly.. and the senior citizens are so fun de.. there find the game quite fun and laugh and feel happy about choosing their lucky hong bao.. haha.. they like those with pic of rice or the word "fu".. haha.. I also quite happy to help them lah.. I can also work in the service line de.. hee.. I can also smile okay..

that night.. there were also superstar final and the asean cup soccer final.. of course.. I watch superstar lah.. I support diya lor.. but she lost.. qute sad.. but nvm.. winning doesn't mean do well in the singing circle lor.. I really like her singing slow songs.. full of emotion and more feminine but darren seems so much confident.. but I think his singing really need brush up.. off key few times.. aiyah.. guy surely has more famale fans to vote for him lor and but his cd.. result quite expected one..

haha.. while I watch superstar.. I will hear loud cheering from some blocks then that is the signal for me to switch to soccer.. must be singapore goaled.. haha.. good to have neighbours who are soccer fan.. really proud of singapore winning overall.. but can they maintain their standard? I not really sure..

Is loan shark really so scary?

Not long ago.. loan shark did appear near my house.. their target is my neighbour.. few doors away.. okay.. they at first only write graffiti on the wall.. my neighbour will then paint over to remove the graffiti but they still wrote over it..

the graffiti still remaining on the wall.. I have photoshoped away some number and letters..

then once.. I hear a loud bang.. something broken.. I actually don't really kaypoh about neighbour's things.. but I sense something wrong so took a peek lor.. I saw something pour out in front of my neighbour's house.. some soil and broken pot bah.. I think nothing much about it.. actually wanted to told my mum about it later.. but it simply slipped out of my mind.. then that night my mum found our small pot of plant gone.. Oh My God! the broken pot is ours and I never noticed it.. alamak.. when I told my mum what I saw in the afternoon.. she just said it was too late already lor.. our cactus just gone like this.. luckily it is not a very nicely grown.. not very wasted.. but I still slightly sad about it..

After that incident.. then my neighbour's door was poured paint lor.. yellow dirty paint.. seemed like shit like that.. and the door was locked with chain.. so scary.. then the window was pasted with newspapers to cover up.. did the da er long do all these? I also don't know.. after that day.. I don't see my neighbour coming back home liao.. and now and then there will be men coming to check out the house.. whether the owner is back or not.. I saw some of these people are actually quite young lor.. teenage bah.. they also did tried to burn the newspaper pasted on the window.. so dangerous..

a few days later.. my neighbour did return to the house.. and I suspect the lock is put by him.. the newspaper too.. and when he open and close back the door.. he will put back the flyer that is slot under the door.. to make it seem like he has not returned to his house.. so clever of him..

everyday.. I have to walk pass the dirty paint and graffiti.. don't know when all these stuff will be removed..

Finally got to eat my favourite dessert again!

Last thurs, we the holland v gang got togther again to celebrate bingli's birthday.. not really a celebration lah.. have dinner together lor.. finally back to our usual hangout place.. the coffee club express.. we used to go there everytime for gatherings but got sian already so change place for a few times lor.. but now we are back to there.. I really missed the muddy mud pie lor.. the very delicious chocolate dessert.. very very nice leh.. the menu also changed liao.. more new dishes.. I tried one main course chicken.. not bad also.. but I forgot the name liao.. hee.. I like it to have tomato spice sauce and also enough serving of veggie.. yum yum.. hee.. really got a good meal.. actually I cannot make it to the dinner de.. got tutorial mah.. but Harrison was still sick.. so no lessons for another week.. quite worried lor.. don't know he can teach finish or not.. attend his class also quite stress de.. I really don't know how to answer his qn lor.. I really bad in organic chem.. but it is something I must really do well lor.. becos I will be doing organic stuff..

The tall and delicious muddy mud pie!