2 days after exams..

yup.. my exams just ended 2 days ago... on tue.. don't really like exams to last more than 1 weeks.. I will feel restless towards the end.. yah lor.. my last paper was 6 days after my 2nd last paper.. have more time to study but don't have the momentum to study.. lose the studying spirit.. haha.. but I still managed to force myself to study.. I must not forget my aim which is to improve my cap to above 4.. after all these exams.. I still don't know how well I will do.. never want to go think about it.. as long as I have did my best.. then can le.. never let myself down..

I never like to think about exams after they are over.. becos it will affect my concentration to study for the exams next day.. it will go over and over my brain and make me worry and sad when I think about how badly I may do or the possibilities that I miss out some questions.. leaving some things empty.. I am a worrier.. therefore I also don't like to discuss with friends about the exams.. once I know I have wrong answers, I will feel more bad.. yah..

so once the exams over.. I will push all the module stuff all of my mind.. and delete everything.. not even left in the recycle bin of my mind.. no space for that if I want to think about other stuff.. so if ask me about what I have studied.. I cannot really give the answer.. therefore I cannot be a tuition teacher at all.. haha..

Exams over.. so I should have fun right.. but I will be returning sch next mon le.. do lab.. that's what honours year about.. so sad right.. and I have actually planned to go sch tmr to book ESI MS.. but I am lazy.. I also want to go out with my mum.. hee.. excuses.. and I also planned to read some readings before going back to lab next mon.. but I haven't did that yet hee..

Week 2 of next sem I will be giving the progress report presentation to the judges.. I already know the panel of judges.. my panel is the nicer one.. lucky! and my presentation is week 2 and not week 1.. more time to prepare.. that's the main advantage.. but I still don't know what I will be presenting yet.. becos I don't have very good experiment results yet.. and I really scared of presentation now.. after all the bad experience I have with my supervisors.. "I really don't understand what you are talking about.. I am really confused by you.." "what is one round???" these are what the prof has said to me.. I thought I will not have problem presenting my work.. as long as I know what I am doing.. but this bad experience really push me down deep into the well.. I am a frog in a well.. I don't know how to do a good presentation.. that's what I feel I am.. and my mentor did not help me at all.. by contradicting what I say.. how can the prof trust me.. when what I say is not true.. I did say the truth.. but why must my mentor do that to me? it's his face that he wants to save..but not mine.. I really want to cry! and I did.. at home..

I really hope the judges will not feel the same way when they hear my presentation next month.. really hope so..